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January 12th, 2002 (10:13pm)

Happy New Year!! (Yes I realize I`m 12 days behind but who says well wishing has a time limit?)

I had the BEST holiday ever!!! Thank you so much to all my girls back inT.O. for taking me out. Especially Nancy who put up with me practically everyday even if it meant being grounded! You guys are the best!!!

You know, I have to say that all a girl really wants is to feel special. Without meaning to sound conceited or anything, I admit that I got a lot of attention over the holidays. But I also realize that the only reason I got that much attention was because I was equivalent to "the new girl", in other words, fresh meat. While the guys were really nice and fun to hang out with, I honestly think I would not date any of them simply because I know they are not interested in me because of me. They like me because I`m a girl, any girl. If any other girl were to come along, I`m certain they would go for her as well. I see this a lot actually. It`s here on AA too. You know those guys who mass e-mail girls with the same notes and paste the same poems on guestbooks knowing that most girls are suckers for attention. Well, sorry to burst your bubble,but the jig is up. This girl ain`t buying. When a guy gives me attention, I want to know that it`s only for me and me alone. That it`s me he likes and not my gender. That he won`t drop me for the next girl who walks by. And most importantly that he chose me over all the other girls out there.

January 29th, 2002 (9:39pm)
I looked up what my name means and was surprised to find it was pretty true! Those who know me well would agree about my being too blunt and honest. Yes I admit it, but I would rather be honest then two-faced!

"As Chantale you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors (Don`t know about this part because I`m kindaallergic to the sun, that`s why I`m always a healthy shade of pastey white ^_^). All the finer things of life and beauties of nature are an inspiration to you and you are attracted to the mysteries of nature. Difficulty in expression results in your being too positive, blunt, and candid in speech and although you are easily offended by others, you do not show it. You crave affection and understanding, but rarely find it as others do not understand you and accuse you of being cool and aloof. A very individual, independent person, you live within your own thoughts. The average person would never realize the true depth of your nature..." (Ha! So there!)

February 17th, 2002 (5:17pm)
When it rains, it pours...
Recall I said I lost all of my e-mails in my school account because I thought the server crashed. It turns out someone actually hacked into my e-mail account and took all my mails! Whoever you are, I`m flattered that you think my life is that interesting, but simultaneously saddened that you think my life is that interesting. Oh and I would like my letters back please...yes, all 164 of them.

Kick a girl when she`s down...
I got a letter in my hotmail account today that said I was sent an e-card. Total SCAM!! It said "Someone has a crush on you and sent you an e-greeting" I was all happy you know and then I go to see the card and it`s so generic. ie. To: My friend, From: Your secret admirer etc. No hint of any sort that I actually know the person or even that the person exists. Just the typical"I think you`re cute" which could be sent to thousands of people and meant for none. *sigh* I hate games.

February 14th, 2002 (10:35pm)
So I found another quiz that tells you what spirit you are and I am a Wind Spirit and the Spirit of Contemplation. Surprisingly,this picture looks like me (yes I have wings!!) Kidding, I just meant my hair is almost that long and the same color.
"Thought above feeling and mind over matter are your mottos. Others come to you for advice and guidance. Some see you as introverted and snobbish, but they are merely jealous of your common sense knack to think things through. Don`t be afraid to listen to your heart though."

"You`re not sure where you fit in this world right now, and maybe you never will. You`re a little bit of everything all rolled into one. You`re spirited when the time comes, you take responsibility for youractions, you are in love or have loved deeply, and you are looked up to for advice."

March 3rd, 2002 (3:33pm)
It is in my nature to think. According to my mother`s horoscope books I have a tendency to think too much. My mind is always crowded with thoughts and as a result I sleep more than the average person. SO TRUE! Till now everyone thought I was just lazy, but see now I have an excuse. I`m not lazy, I just think too much!

March 3rd, 2002 (7:41pm)
Here`s a little twist to online quizzes! Anyone remember Transformers?
If I was an Autobot, I`d be:
Click to see what Autobot you could be!
Take the Transformers personality test
Yep, that`s right, I be the LEADER hahahahaha

March 9th, 2002 (6:24pm)
Scary a`ss storm going on down here. The lights keep flickering and NO ONE IS HOME!! The wind sounds like huge sheets of metal are being violentlythrown against the wall and my apartment shakes too!! Straight out of horror movies. Yes I am a chicken. I can`t take storms like this by myself. Every sound makes me jump and I keep imagining scary things are lurking in dark corners waiting to pop out and give me a heart attack. I need someone here to laugh at me and tell me I`m being silly.

March 11th, 2002 (11:43pm)
Stinkin` Lousy Life!
Here`s a list of things ailing me:
-My freakin` left eye keeps twitching! (Stop talking about me you bastards!)
-My wisdom tooth is starting to grow...AGAIN! (It does this gradually, you know prolonging my suffering and pain. I can`t eat anything without wanting to burst into tears)
-I fell asleep while studying and woke up at 9:10am, myexam was at 10:30am...I still had 40 pages to cover. (First words out ofmy mouth were "Oh F`uck!")
-I got a freaking sun-burnfrom walking home. (It wasn`t even sunny and yes, I was wearing sunscreen!!! I swear I`m allergic to the sun)
-My right leg is sore for only God knows why (I felt like it was trying to fall off while I was walking home and I ended up walking like one leg was longer than the other)

Highlight of the day was a conversation I had with one of my supervisors:
He: You`re awesome!
Me: I know
He: And modest too!
Me: Oh yeah
(he smiles, I smile)
He: Don`t ever change kiddo
Me: Oh don`t worry, I won`t *big smile*

Yep, they love me at work...ailments and all.

July 25th, 2002 (5:16am)
I just found my grade 11 yearbook. Flipping through the pages made me think about all the people I had known, had been friends with and most importantly, are still friends with. When I moved upto Waterloo to study I promised myself not to lose those friends I felt closest with. There were years, where I thought I had lost them, but somehowI didn`t despair because even though we weren`t on speaking terms, I still felt deep down inside that they were still there for me. All those little promises of being friendsforever really meant something to me.Now flipping through these pages six years later, I`m glad to see the whisperings of their promises that have remained true all this time.

If I don`t say it enough, let me say it right now: you guys are part of my being, you helped me become who I am and I`d be lost without you all. Thank you for reminding me that there is always a reason to smile and many more to laugh.

July 25th, 2002 (6:51pm)
Urgh.... look at that two new entries!! Aren`t yall just the luckiest bunch of people!! I was in a sentimental mood this morning but now I feel like crap. Advils are my friends. Where oh where would I be without you? (why, on stronger stuff of course!) hahahahahahahahaha

August 10th, 2002 (5:09am)
So Friday night I went to Tonic. It was so much fun! So many stories to tell! I saw the coolest pick up strategy, this guy started talking to my guy friend and he impressed us all by making a stir stick float between his hands!!It was incredible!! I sat right in front of him so I could see right through his hands and the thing was floating!! It was incredible!! Fitting that his line was "Do you believe in magic?".
Oh and some scary guy pressed himself up against my friend and started dancing with her, so I pushed him off her and he looked at us and asked "Are you guys lesbians?" I put my arm around my friend, pulled her closer, turned to him and said "Yes". Hahahahahaha!!!! At least that got rid of him! Lesson for the boys out there:
a) do not press yourself up against a girl, or grab her, at least ask first
b) do not ask your friend to get her number `cause if you ain`t got the balls to talk to her, you`ve already lost
c) do not get cheap feels off of her (ie. rubbing her hand and sucking in your breath saying "you`ve got niiiiiiice hands"
d) do not bite your fist at her `cause that`s just scary
e) "Hhhhhooooooooolllllyyyy fffuuuuuuucccckiiin`......biiiiiiitch" is not the best way to tell a girl she`s hot and you wanna talk to her
Hard to believe there are so many clueless boys out there.....actually no it's not, sad ain't it?