Negara Ku Tanah Tumpahnya Darah Ku
Rakyat Hidup Bersatu Dan Maju
Rahmat Bahgia Tuhan Kurniakan
Raja Kita Selamat Bertakhta
Rahmat Bahgia Tuhan Kurniakan
Raja Kita Selamat Bertakhta.


1. Belief in God and the Last Day.

2. Loyalty to King of Kings and NegaraKu.

3. Upholding yhe Constitution.

4. Rule of Law.

5. Good Behaviour & Morality.



Matthew 7:23 ; Matthew 26:34 ; Matthew 21:31 ;
Mark 9:50 ; Mark 10:23 ; Mark 13 ;
Luke 11:38 ; Luke 21:24 ; Luke 21:31 ; Luke 21:33 ;

Isaiah vs. Ezekiel;
Daniel vs. Nebuchadnezzar ;
John Kerry, The Bastard - John 3:16 feat Genesis 3:19 ;
Abel feat Zechariah 3 ;
2 Thessalonians feat 1 Timothy ;
Corinthians feat Galatians ;
Acts feat Romans 5:12-21 ;
Hellenistic feat Hell ;
Klang Valley feat River Valley ;




Impact: The western tip of the Indonesian island of Sumatra, the closest inhabited area to the epicentre of the earthquake, was devastated by the tsunami. More than 70% of the inhabitants of some coastal villages are reported to have died.

Toll: 111,171 people died, while more than 127,000 others remain missing. The exact number of victims will probably never be known. The number of homeless is estimated at 800,000.

Aid: There are at least 100 aid organisations - plus UN agencies - operating in Indonesia. Aid agencies have provided emergency food, water and shelter to about 330,000 people, according to the UN Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs (OCHA). The agency says the next step is to construct temporary settlements for 150,000 families.

The government estimates that reconstruction will cost $4.5bn (£2.4bn) over the next three years. Reuters reports that donors have pledged $1.7bn for this year. Indonesia - considered one of the world's most corrupt countries - has put controls in place to try to prevent dishonest officials siphoning off donations.


Impact: Sri Lanka suffered more from the tsunami than anywhere else apart from Indonesia. Southern and eastern coastlines have been ravaged. Homes, crops and fishing boats have all been destroyed. The International Labour Organisation estimates that at least 400,000 people have lost their jobs. But initial surveys suggest that the country's coral reef systems may not have been badly damaged.

Toll: At least 31,000 people are known to have died, and thousands more are missing. The number of homeless people is put at between 800,000 and one million.

Aid: President Chandrika Kumaratunga has launched a $3.5bn reconstruction drive, and foreign troops are helping to clear wreckage as life begins to return to normal.

But there has been a row over whether the government has given enough assistance to the north-eastern part of the country controlled by Tamil Tiger rebels. BBC correspondents say the disaster now looks likely to exacerbate rather than resolve ethnic grievances.


Impact: India's south-east coast, especially the state of Tamil Nadu, was the worst affected area on the mainland. (See below for more details on the Andaman and Nicobar islands.)

Toll: More than 8,800 people are confirmed dead in mainland India, 7,968 of them in Tamil Nadu and almost 600 in Pondicherry (see below for data on the Andaman and Nicobar islands). Thousands more are still missing. At least 140,000 Indians, mostly from fishing families, are in relief centres.

Aid: Repairing the damage is expected to cost about $1.2bn - but India is in fact providing aid to other countries hit by the tsunami, including medical workers, supplies and cash.


Impact: Salt water, which washed over the islands, contaminated many sources of fresh water and destroyed large areas of arable land. Most of the islands' jetties have also been destroyed.

Toll: At least 1,894 of the islands' 400,000 people are confirmed dead and more than 5,500 are missing - 4,500 from Katchall island alone.

Aid: India has refused assistance from international aid agencies because of the presence of a military base on one island and indigenous tribes on some others. The military has been building extra landing fields on the islands to help with relief. About 12,000 people have been moved to relief camps on larger islands.


Impact: The west coast of Thailand was severely hit, including outlying islands and tourist resorts near Phuket. Some bodies may still lie in the rubble of ruined hotels.

Toll: More than 5,300 are confirmed dead. More than 1,700 foreigners from a total of 36 countries are among the dead.

Aid: Thailand has not asked for disaster relief aid, but it has requested technical help to identify the dead. A huge operation to take DNA samples from the bodies is under way.


Impact: Twenty of the Maldives' 199 inhabited islands have been described as "totally destroyed". The shallowness of the water limited the tsunami's destructive power, but flooding was extensive. A sea wall protecting the Maldives capital, Male, prevented half the city being destroyed, the UN said. Many luxury resorts will be closed for months - but parliamentary elections went ahead as planned on 22 January.

Toll: At least 82 people have died and 26 are missing. About 12,500 have been displaced.

Aid: UN agencies have provided $400,000 in emergency funds and have distributed water and hygiene kits to 2,500 households. Aid organisations plan to provide 1,800 tons of rice and 450 tons of canned fish and conduct a national immunisation campaign. The UN Development Programme is helping to coordinate use of the $19m pledged for reconstruction efforts.


Impact: Although Malaysia lies close to the epicentre, much of its coastline was spared widespread devastation because it was shielded by Sumatra. However, scores of people were swept from beaches near the northern island of Penang.

Toll: At least 68 people are confirmed dead.


Impact: The worst affected area was the Irrawaddy Delta, inhabited by poor subsistence farmers and fishing families.

Toll: Burma's military junta has put the death toll at 59, but the World Food Programme (WFP) says this may be an underestimate. One WFP employee found 200 households where at least one person was missing. Hundreds of Burmese migrants workers living in Thailand are also thought to have died.


Toll: Two people have been reported dead in Bangladesh.


Impact: Somalia is the worst-hit African state, with damage concentrated in the region of Puntland, on the tip of the Horn of Africa. The water destroyed 1,180 homes, smashed 2,400 boats and rendered freshwater wells and reservoirs unusable, the UN said in a report early in January.

Toll: Between 150 and 200 Somalis are thought to have died, with thousands more homeless and many fishermen still unaccounted for. As many as 30,000 people may have been displaced.

Aid: The UN has called for $13m to help tsunami victims. Aid agencies with small ground operations in Puntland have delivered food and relief supplies, as has a German Navy helicopter. Somalia is anarchic and has few roads, presenting aid agencies with a major challenge.



The Greatest Love of All

The Greatest Love of All is :

Matthew 22: 37 , Mark 12: 29 & Luke 10: 27 which states that "You shall love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind."




Eternal punishment comes simultaneously. Retribution comes in stages.

False prophets lies with the truth. That's why they're so dangerous.

ALWAYS start with ADAM from the Book of GENESIS, chapter 19, verse 36 – Moab, 37 – Benammi, 38 - Ben Afleck won’t marry you J Lo! Jump to Deutronomy Chapter 22, Verses 17, plus Exodus, Leviticus to Joshua, 1 Kings & 2 Kings to 2 Chronicles, Ezra, Nehemiah, Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, Hosea, Joel to Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah and Malachi and the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, then Collossians, Timothy, Peter right up to the Book of the Revelations!

They will fight against the Lamb, but the Lamb will conquer the beasts, for he is Lord of lords and King of kings; (Revelation 17:14)

I Confess

Confiteor Deo omnipotenti
et vobis, fratres,
quia peccavi nimis
cogitatione, verbo, o pere et omissiione:
mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.
I deo precor beatam Mariam
semper Virginem,
omnes Angelos et sanctos,
et vos, fratres, orare pro me
ad Dominum Deum nostrum.

Our Father

Pater noster, qui es in caelis;
sanctifice tur nomen tuum;
adveniat regnum tuum;
fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo, et in terra.
Panem nostrum cotidianum da nobis hodie;
et dimitte nobis debita nostra,
sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris;
et ne nos inducas in tentationom;
sed libera nos a malo.

Lord, I am not worthy.

Domine, non sum dignus ut
intres sub tectum meum;
sed tantum dic verbo,
et sanabitur anima mea.

may the Spirit you promised
lead us into all truth
and reveal to us the
full meaning of this sacrifice.


Priest: Pray, brethren, that our sacrifice (schizophrenia - man made / synthetic illness, induced madness) may be acceptable to God, the Almighty.

People: May the Lord God accept the sacrifice at Your Hands for the Praise and Glory of His Name, for our good, and the good of all His Church.

THE SHIT (The Sick-mentalists)

The sick-mentalists in our lives are like SHIT to be expelled out from our arseholes into the toilet bowls to be flushed into the sewer as sewerage SHIT.

In short, these sick-mentalists are all JUST SHIT !

F You PM - Prostitute Mother ( a prostitute who became a mother out of her prostitution with her father as an act of incest by itself producing a bastard as a product of incest - lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth! ) USM - U Stupid Malaysians - anak sundal, Iblis, MOAB!


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to educate and inform the public on schizophrenia.

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10 Warning Signs of Mental Illness

  1. Marked personality change
  2. Inability to cope with problems and daily activities
  3. Strange grandiose ideas
  4. Excessive anxieties
  5. Prolonged depression and apathy
  6. Marked changes in eating or sleeping patterns
  7. Thinking or talking about suicide
  8. Extreme mood - highs and lows
  9. Abuse of alcohol or illegal substances
  10. Excessive anger, hostility or violent behaviour

Someone who display one or more of these warning signs should be evaluated by a psychiatrist or other physician as soon as possible. Mental illness can be treated, don't hesitate to seek help.

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                - Booker T. Washington.

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Against Babylon

Listen, a rumbling on the mountain
as of a great multitude!
Listen, a tumultuous uproar
as of kingdoms massing together!
Yes, Yahweh Sabaoth is mustering his army.
From far away lands,
from the ends of the heavens
they come - Yahweh
and the instruments of his wrath - to destroy the whole earth.

Wail, for the day of Yahweh is near;
it will come as destruction from the Almighty.

See how the day of Yahweh comes:
it is a cruel day
coming with wrath and fierce anger.
It will make the earth desolate;
it will destroy sinners within it.

I punish the world for the evil it does,
and the wicked for their sins.

This is why the heavens tremble
and the earth shakes its foundation
at the wrath of Yahweh Sabaoth
on the day of his burning anger.

Whoever is captured will be butchered,
whoever is caught will be slaughtered.
Their babies will be dashed to pieces before their eyes,
their houses will be looted,
their wives raped.

Against them I will stir up the Medes,
who don't crave for money
and are not interested in gold.
Their bows and arrows will strike down young men
without mercy or compassion.
They do not spare infants and children.

Babylon, the jewel of kingdoms,
pride and glory of the Chaldeans,
will be like Sodom and Gomorrah
when overthrown by God.

Her time is close at hand;
her days are now numbered.

( Isaiah 13 )


This is a very simplistic story.

A mouse looked through a crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife opening a package; what food might it contain?

He was aghast to discover that it was a mouse trap !

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning, "There is a mouse trap in the house, there is a mouse trap in the house."

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said, "Mr. Mouse, I can tell you this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me; I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "There! is a mouse trap in the house."

"I am so very sorry Mr. Mouse," sympathized the pig, "but there is nothing I can do about it but pray; be assured that you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow , who replied, "Like wow, Mr. Mouse, a mouse trap; am I in grave danger, Duh?"

So the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected to face the farmer's mouse trap alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house, like the sound of a mouse trap catching its prey. The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught.

In the darkness, she did not see that it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught.

The snake bit the farmer's wife.

The farmer rushed her to the hospital.

She returned home with a fever. Now everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient.

His wife's sickness continued so that friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig .

The farmer's wife did not get well, in fact, she died, and so many people came for her funeral the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide meat for all of them to eat.

So the next time you hear that someone is facing a problem and think that it does not concern you, remember that when the least of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

Author unknown

Lament for Moab

Laid waste in a night,
Ar of Moab is silent!
Laid waste in a night,
Kir of Moab is ruined!
The people of Diman have gone to the high places to weep.
Over Nebo and Medeba Moab wails.
Everyone wails, every heart melts in tears.
Heshbon and Elealeh cry out;
their howling is heard as far as Jahaz; the armed men of Moab cry aloud and their hearts are faint.

My heart cries out for Moab;
her fugitives flee as far as Zoar,
as far as Eglath-shelishiyah.
At the ascent of Luhith
they go weeping;
on the way to Horonaim
their cries are heart-rending.
Their cry rings round the border of Moab,
resounds as far as Eglaim,
reaches as far as Beer Elim.

The waters of Dimon flow with blood,
but worse is yet in store,
for I will bring lions upon Dimon,
upon those who escape from Moab,
and upon those who survive in the land.

We have heard of the pride of Moab,
of her arrogance and insolence,
of her empty pretensions.
Let her wail then,
and let everyone wail for her.

Therefore I weep as Jazer weeps for the vines of Sibmah.
I drench you, O Heshbon,
O Elealeh, with my tears!
no more singing is heard,
no more shouts of joy is raised.
no voice shouts in exultation,
no heart sings a vintage song.
Like a lyre, therefore,
my soul moans for Moab;
when she goes to pray at the sanctuary,
it will be to no avail.

This is the word which Yahweh spoke against Moab in the past. But now Yahweh says, " Within three years, like the years of a servant bound by contract, the glorious power of Moab will have ceased to command respect, her survivors will be very few and feeble."

( Isaiah 15 & 16 )


Baby Boy (ft. Sean Paul)











Child Abuser in Singapore

20 years for man who did this to 7-year-old boy
by Chong Chee Kin

DISTRICT judge Kow Keng Siong minced no words when he put child abuser Chong Keng Chye behind bars yesterday for the maximum 20 years.

He said: 'I cannot fathom what sort of depravity and perversity would motivate someone to torture a young boy in such a gratuitous manner, including dripping hot wax on his testicles.'

For close to eight months, Chong, 36, abused the boy until he eventually died from his injuries on June 3, 1999.

In his judgment, which took 40 minutes to read out, the judge agreed with the prosecution that Chong deserved preventive detention, which means no chance of early release for good behaviour.

He will also be given nine strokes of the cane, after he admitted both abusing the seven-year-old boy and cheating.

The judge noted Chong's life of crime began more than 20 years ago when he was brought to court as a teenager for extortion. For months, he had inflicted 'repeated inhuman and degrading' abuse on the boy, the son of his live-in girlfriend, the judge said.

It was a 'heart-wrenching exercise to study the boy's horrific autopsy report', the judge said, adding that the 144 injuries on him would have been 'frighteningly obvious' to those who saw him.

'Indeed, it is beyond my comprehension how Chong's horrific abuse of the boy could have escaped detection for such a prolonged period,' he said.

Every day from October 1998 until June 3, 1999, when the boy died, Chong would slap, kick and hit him with a bamboo pole or a feather duster.

He forced the boy to go around naked at home and, at times, to swallow his own faeces.

By the time the boy died, he was a mass of injuries, new and old, including spinal fractures and other wounds that appeared to stem from cigarette burns and cuts. He was also bleeding in the brain.

'It is tragic that no one did anything, or did enough, to save him and put a stop to his misery,' said the judge.

The boy's mother saw it all but said she let it happen because Chong said he was doing it to 'cure' the boy. She was jailed on May 11 for four years and seven months for cheating and for allowing Chong to abuse her son. She cannot be named as it would identify her two daughters whom the prosecution said were also abused by Chong.

Yesterday, the judge told Chong it was clear he had 'exploited the vulnerability and gullibility of the boy's mother', who has an IQ of 80 (normal IQ is 100), to 'facilitate your unbridled acts of violence'.

Chong's 'sadistic and violent streak', he said, was already sufficient to warrant a long stay behind bars, to protect society.

But barely five months after the boy died, Chong got his girlfriend to help him cheat five people of about $300,000.

He pretended he had to get rid of his assets because he was in trouble for evading taxes and told his targets they needed to pay him only small 'transfer fees' for his assets.

Noting Chong had run a sophisticated scam, the judge said he was concerned by Chong's lack of remorse.

He said a psychiatrist had found that Chong tended to play the victim and downplay responsibility for his crimes.

He also failed to display any empathy for the victims of his 'offending behaviour'.

Explaining why he had given Chong such a long jail term, the judge said Chong had 'clear disregard for the authority and the law'. He also had little education, no useful skills, was unable to hold a steady job and was likely to commit crime again.

He told Chong: 'You have an illustrious criminal career spanning over two decades... Your present offences show your insatiable thirst for violence and greed as well as a wilful disregard for authority and the laws of the land.'

My "Disturbed" Thoughts and Counter-Attacks in Schizophrenia.

1.Adam Chow Ah Kaw had intercourse with Chynthia. Adam Chow Ah Kaw raping Chynthia’s cibai! Nice-er? Nice-loh. PROOF! Deutronomy Chapter 22 Verses 17!!!Cho Kai is a RELATIVE of ADAM CHOW AH KAW (Malaysian I/C No.: 80799344). She's a Prostitute! Cho Kai is a mentally ill brain. Cho Kai is a Siau Cha Bo! Tell cho kai to say sorry to everybody and go to the mental institution or commit suicide. Commit suicide better! Prostitute Mother!

Cho Kai is a Drug Addict.

Cho Kai, who is the lowest class scum prostitute in the entire face of this earth and living in #04-03, Stulang Villa Condominium, Jalan Inderaputra, 80300 Johor Bahru, Malaysia.(from April 1997-June 1997)

Cho Kai made love to her father. = HAAM KA CHAN. (whole family die)

Result of evidence is = Cho Kai climaxed when cho kai was making love to her father.

And Cho Kai gave birth to lan chiau wang pa tan, a bastard as a by product of incest :- cho kai's bastard father, bastard sperm!

Cho kai is a AYAM BERLAPIK, fat and ugly prostitute body, low class cibai, "haam ka chan" means "you made love to your father" = result is cho kai climaxed loudly when she was making love to her father.("What is she doing with the music so loud?") Cho kai's bedroom secrets have been made known! This is JUSTICE!

Cho Kai climaxed inside lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth.

Cho Kai made love to lan chiau wang pa tan.

2.Adam Chow Ah Kow took off CHYNTHIA'S panties and raped CHYNTHIA vagina. (which means = "IN") Adam Chow Ah Kow raped CHYNTHIA. ("Nice...") Deutronomy Chapter 22:Verses 17, 19/10 Nausea, 20/10/98, "Fuck him properly" - Fuck who properly? Fuck Adam Chow Ah Kow properly! "HATRED". Virgin Blood, Wedding Sheets, Lot 10, Isetan. CHYNTHIA is the "Tampoi Prostitute", the seh pat por, chi sin, siau kau, cho lang si beh tu lan. White cheepolapta cock, bo bin, bo bulu, "sorry uncle?" - "Happy Mother's Day" (11/05/97). Adam Chow Ah Kow and CHYNTHIA's bedroom secrets have been revealed! This is JUSTICE! New Tempo 120 - Federal Territory Day - 1 February 2002. This is the ULTIMATE JUSTICE! CHYNTHIA is a PROSTITUTE! Titanic Techno! = [Meaning of this is = Titanic Techno, Deutronomy 22:17 - Virgin Blood, Mother Mary, Blessed Mary Ever Virgin - I'M NO LONGER SEXUALLY SINFUL - MY SEXUAL SINS HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN BY GOD AND THE HOLY SPIRIT - AND SO NOW I LOST MY VIRGINITY "AGAIN" TO THE POWER OF GOD'S SPIRIT ON 20/10/98 (20 OCTOBER 1998)!] IN- CHYNTHIA'S CIBAI! 1-2-0!

Adam, Adam, Adam, Adam, Adam,

Adam Chow, Adam Chow, Adam Chow, Adam Chow, Adam Chow,

Adam Chow Ah Kaw, Adam Chow Ah Kaw, Adam Chow Ah Kaw, Adam Chow Ah Kaw, Adam Chow Ah Kaw,

"(Why) She / CHYNTHIA can't move. She / CHYNTHIA can't get any man. No wonder she / CHYNTHIA wants to stay in a condominium to prostitute herself." Balas balik. Hit back at CHYNTHIA !

3.Papa raped her ("Jenny", the Tanjong Rambutan Prostitute(the mental institution prostitute), the "sister's" voices). Steven, the retarded, chopped fingers, chop him up into pieces.

Jenny, papa raping you. Go in. Good. Nice-er. Papa raped her. Papa raping her. 20!

Papa cici sex, Jenny Sex. Steven, the retarded, chopped fingers. Chop him up into pieces. Chop lan chiau wang pa tan kukuchiau into pieces.

Jenny's vagina, Jenny's vagina, Jenny's vagina, Jenny's vagina, Jenny's vagina,

4.Nausea is a Stupid Singaporean Prostitute. Take off all your clothes and jump down to your death. Make sure your skull cracks and your brains scatters all over the roadside. A pile, two piles of dirty ash.

5.Lan chiau wang pa tan is a bastard as a by-product of incest. Rape him. Lan chiau wang pa tan is cho kai's bastard father, bastard sperm. Cho Kai bastard father rape lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth. Cho Kai's bastard father raping lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth!

Lan chiau wan pa tan is a bastard as a product of incest. Cho Kai's bastard father's bastard sperms. Climax into lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth and asshole. Sodomnise lan chiau wang pa tan's asshole. Anak Sundal lan chiau wang pa tan , the bastard as a product of incest. Papa raping lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth and asshole. Adam Chow Ah Kaw climaxing into lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth and asshole. Cut the kukuchiau(cut his little prick).

Phen tan lan chiau wang pa tan. (he's Stupid)

Rape cho kai. Climax into cho kai's mouth. Sodomise cho kai's asshole. Rape cho kai. PaPa Rape cho kai. Adam Chow Ah Kaw Raping cho kai mouth and arsehole & climaxing inside cho kai's cibai.

Please RAPE lan chiau wang pa tan, Wat Erawan. Please Rape him. Rape him. He's a bastard as a product, a by-product of incest. Cho Kai's bastard father, bastard sperm. Sodomise him. I want to RAPE him. I want to beat him up! Climax into (his) lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth. Thank you Wat Erawan. Thank you Kwan Imm. Thank you Kali. Thank you Ganesh. Thank you Mother Mary.(He'll be raped. Nice. Go IN) Thank you Holy Spirit. Thank you Jesus Christ. Thank you Father in Heaven. Thank you. Amen.

6. 01/01/2002 - Saloma (Ampang,K.L) - "bastard" (YOU - "MAMA" IMPOSTER). Your bastard children, your bastard family, your bastard relative, your bastard ancestors! Please let her be raped by the Indian.

Parikabana betik chin teng. She raping her bastard son.

Bastard Spittel. Can I SPIT at her.

He's so Stupid. He's so DIRTY! He's UGLY! He's a Nobody. He's only a Paria. I won't sleep with HIM! Marry?-Clear my throat and SPIT AT HIM! (Russell Chow, that is.)

Tan Siew Shya, Tanjung Rambutan lan chiau wan pa tan.

Sheh pat por. Chi sin. Siau Kau. Cho lang si beh tu lan!

Dia Ayam.

Wan pa tan, keh piak eh. (Kuak lu eh lan chiau, lu boh lan chiau, lu si…)

Kill that Bastard!

He's a Bastard. He's just a relative (to Adam Chow Ah Kaw). (I thought you[Russell Chow] are brothers? [to "Brandon"])

She's a stupid, low-class prostitute.

She's Stupid.

She's a stupid prostitute.

She's a low-class prostitute.

She's a mental prostitute.

She's a mad prostitute.

She's a prostitute.

In your cibai. Your cibai. your cibai. Adam.

Dog raping Parikabana cibai. Dog climaxing (into)inside lan chiau wang pa tan mouth and asshole.

Dog rape Parikabana cibai. Dog rape lan chiau wan pa tan mouth.

Kai chai le ma. Straw-Ganesh.

"Madam Kwan's" KAI PHOR. 22/02/02.

Melayu Babi, Melayu Bodoh, Melayu makan Babi. Cina Babi. Indian Paria.

Chinese piece of shit. Young punks are drug addicts. Cho Kai lan chiau wang pa tan. You stupid prostitute.

That prostitute.

7. "Mana Ada Sistem"(MAS) di Malaysia? Tak ada sistem. Tapi ada sistem di Singapura. Sistem apa tu? = The Stupid Sewerage System "IN" Singapore! Patutlah. Their brains is "IN" their Arseholes. Left brain is left arse, right brain is right arse and the central nervous system is in between the left arse and right arse that is the ARSEHOLE where only SHIT comes out of it! Padanlah muka hodoh engkau tu!

"Mana Ada Sistem" meaning where is the system (MAS, also an abbrevation for Malaysian Airlines System) in Malaysia? Tak ada sistem meaning there isn't any system. Tapi ada sistem di Singapura meaning there is a system in Singapore. Sistem apa tu meaning what system is that? = The Stupid Sewerage System "IN" Singapore! Their brains is "IN" their Arseholes. Left brain is left arse, right brain is right arse and the central nervous system is in between the left arse and right arse that is the ARSEHOLE where only SHIT comes out of it! Serve you right!

Russell Crowe, iaitu SI BURUNG GAGAK HITAM, The Scarevenger of rubbish bin terrorism dengan Nicole the Retarded Kidman, iaitu sebenarnya dengan Nat King Cole, Bapa hitam-putih betul Nicole.... hahahaha dicampur-adukan jadi The Retarded Kid-Man!

Their(Russell-[the lowest scum of the entire human race] & Nicole-[the mental institution prostitute]) Retarded Children. Ha!Ha! Zoolander "IN" Pest Wonderland "IN" Mid Valley Megamall. Ugly-Looking Prostitutes, Bare-Bodied, Low-Class Prostitutes' Vaginas, Teteks & Arseholes. Filty, dirty and unclean lowest-class prostitutes - Smelly, Bad Breath and Stinking Body Odour!

"Russell Chow Teck Meng" - The "Zoolander" IN Pets Wonderland or, rather, T comes after the letter S, so its "PE-S-T WONDERLAND" IN Mid Valley! What a PEST! Do Call the "Pest Control" to Smash the "C-O-C-K-CROACH" till all the internal organs are Smashed Up! Praise the Lord! Amen! Thanks Be to God!

ZOOLANDER "IN" (1) Bess Models & Talent Management (2) Fireworks Productions (3)The Pitstop Bistro-Bar Private Limited (formerly known as Carfe International Pte. Ltd.)

Russell / Adam Chow Ah Kaw's ZOOLANDER "IN" (1) Block 7, #13-265, Ghim Moh Road, Singapore 270007 (2) Block 19, #01-247, Ghim Moh Road, Singapore 270019 (3) #05-04, Stulang Villa Condominium, 80300 Johor Bahru, Malaysia.





11. Adam is PaPa is AdamChow-AhKaw r-a-p-i-n-g Jenny/Nicole.

ADAM CHOW AH KAW R-a-p-i-n-g Nicole/Jenny. Steven the Retarded, chopped fingers. Chop him up into pieces. (Adam Chow Ah Kaw's relative is Nicole/Jenny)

ADAM CHOW AH KAW Steven the Retarded, chopped fingers r-a-p-e Nicole/Jenny. Chop him up into pieces.(Adam Chow Ah Kaw's relative is Nicole/Jenny)

Adam Chow made Tampoi Prostitute. Adam Chow made Tampoi Prostitute.

12. ALWAYS start with ADAM from the Book of GENESIS, chapter 19, verse 36 – Moab, 37 – Benammi, 38 - Ben Afleck won’t marry you J Lo! Jump to Deutronomy Chapter 22, Verses 17, plus Exodus, Leviticus to Joshua, 1 Kings & 2 Kings to 2 Chronicles, Ezra, Nehemiah, Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, Hosea, Joel to Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah and Malachi and the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, then Collossians, Timothy, Peter right up to the Book of the Revelations!

13. Gillian Lam Wai Hing is a lump of shit or rather, Gillian Lam Wai Hing ISLAM of shit!

PAS (Parti Se Islam of SHIT Malaysia) GAGAL... Segolongan masyarakat Melayu telah mati menjadi Babi.

PM stands for Prophet Muhammad or rather, Pee Muhammad. Please defecate or better still, urinate on the Cursed Book of the Quran! The followers are identified as the FALSE PROPHET of the Holy Bible.

The universities in Malaysia: UPM,USM,UM stands for Fuck-U-Prostitute-Mother, U-Stupid-Malaysians, U-Mental. Some asshole from USM wrote a book "Just Shit" who refers the PM as (the Prostitute Mother) who is in fact CHO KAI from #04-03, Stulang Villa Condominium in Johor Bahru who came to disturb the neighbours and prostitute herself in the brothel house & is a relative of ADAM CHOW AH KAW! Also the "PM" gave birth to a bastard as a product of incest- LAN CHIAU WANG PA TAN is the bastard boy's name!

Rape that orang gila Tampoi! Rape that orang gila Tampoi terencat akal! Cacat brain.

Kali, rape her & kill her. Kali, rape them & kill them.

Rape them, kill them, torture them, torment them, rob them, harm them. Rape their bastard children, rape their bastard families, rape their bastard relatives, rape their bastard anchestors. Harm them. rape them and kill them. torture them, torment them, rob them.


Rrrright...Tampoi Chabo Cibai is the 'In' Wonderland!

Phen TAN lan chiau wang pa TAN. RAPE-lan chiau wang pa TAN!!!!!!!

Minyak babi di betiknya. Mulut babi. Otak lembu. Mulut anjing. Otak anjing.

Rape her and kill her. Rape them and kill them.

Jesus born of a virgin mother - Book of Matthews = lan chiau wang pa tan is a IBLIS! (Lucifer); (Christian spiritual music) No. 8 !

Genesis Chapter 19 - The destruction of Sodom. Read till Genesis 19:36 (and the two daughters of Lot became pregnant by their father = cho kai) Verses 37 & 38 (Moabites & Ammonites = lan chiau wang pa tan / lan chiau bastard = a bastard as a product of incest) who exist to this day!!!

Deutronomy 22:21 - (Cho Kai) becoming a prostitute while still in her father's house. Deutronomy 23:4 - The Ammonite or Moabite (lan chiau wang pa tan / lan chiau bastard) shall never be admitted into the assembly of Yahweh even after the tenth generation. Verse 7: You shall never share your prosperity or happiness with these peoples.

Deutronomy 22:17 - he (Adam Chow Ah Kaw) pretends that when he married (raped) her, she (Tampoi cha bo cibai) was not a virgin. And yet, see, here is the PROOF of my (Blessed Mother of God) viginity (wedding sheets, titanic techno, virgin blood).

papa raped her ("Jenny" / Cynthia). Russell won't marry you, Cyn-cyn. Russell don't want to marry you Cyn-cyn - you're stupid, dirty and ugly !!!

Benammi - Ben Afleck won't marry you, J Lo!

Rugrats – Cynthia in Titanic techno came out from a Big Fish’s mouth & is saved.

Rocket Power – To Be Otto Not To Be?

You’re a NOBODY, to me, that is, you’re a NOBODY. So don’t try to be a somebody, at least not to me, that is. You may be a somebody in society but you’re a nobody to me - so don’t try to be a somebody, to me that is!

When there’s no justice in this world, I’ll be God for one day and take the law into my hands !

When I go down, I’ll take e-v-e-r-y-body down with me !

Revenge is a KISS, this time I won’t miss !

7 years of living justice ! I now realised there really are some and certain people out to get me and I may have been murdered for what I believed in except that I had 7 years of living justice and only heaven knows how long more my mere existence will be justified !

To err is inhumane and to be perfect is humane. So, to be God-like, you must be humane! (so to speak)

She's a sewerage shit to be flushed into the sewer. She's a whore !

Make her a vegetable. vegetarian.

When I hit a woman, I hit her real hard. When I hit a man, I hit him even harder!


WOMEN are generally second class citizens to MAN, unless they are EXEMPLARY EXEMPTED.



David Letterman is an OLD schivelled-up prune !

David Letterman is a SENILE old man !

David Letterman is a DYING old man !

Harris Ng is a Woodbridge Mental Patient !

The Malaysian Catholic Prostitute (Mother) is Julia Stephen Begit from Sarawak and her bastard child Kelia Lim. ( Charles Ng?) Lim Lay Tee and her bastard child Fabian and Lee Chee Wai from Block 111, Lengkok Tiga, Singapore. ARE YOU MARRIED?

Mental Retards shall not rule the world - not now, not ever ! Regardless of whether you're black, white or even yellow.

Malays are PIGS, Chinese are BASTARDS & Indians are OUTCASTS !

J Lo is a Butt Artist. Not REAL! Lo'Real - Hair colour, skincare and make-up. But wears a "ko-ko-kai" watch - a FAKE Rolex Watch! A watch that is not a watch coz the brain mechanism is mentally ill. Giving totally slow and inaccurate time.

Fuck u PM (Puki Mak)! U.S.M. (U Senior Minister, Lee Kwang You bullshit doppelgangger lookalike) in Selangor! Eiamia si lan chiau wang pa tan mouth!

Then death and the netherworld were thrown into the lake of fire. This lake of fire is the second death. All who were not recorded in the Book of Life were thrown into the lake of fire. Rev 20:15 & Rev 13:8.

Let the sinner continue to sin and the defiled remain in his/her defilement. Rev 22:11.

Outside are the dogs, sorcerers, the immoral, murderers, idolaters and all who take pleasure in falsehood! Rev 22:15.

As for cowards, traitors, depraved, murderers, adulterers, sorcerers, and idolators - all those who live in falsehood, their place is the lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death. Rev 21:8.

Genesis 17:11,12. You shall circumcise your foreskin (cut off the loose skin at the end of the penis) when he is eight days old, every male among you will be circumcised.

Castrate - remove the testicles - cut the male organ that discharges sperm bearing fluid of all 8 year old males. Cut the kuku chiu. Cut lanchiau wang pa tan kukuchiau.

Be-tik, be-tik, be-tik.

Ikan pari be-tik ching teng.

In-ching ching's vagina.

Be-tik macam i-tik ching teng.

Bapa borek, anak rintik, macam itik kat Mad Person in Singapore. (duck rice in Mcpherson Road?)

Badwi, dah kahwin dengan be-tik sudah potong, ah?

Rapture the female sex organ and castrate the woman.

Do you know how a model walks? Models do the catwalk. Catwoman? Having an affair with the police officer? There are 9 ways to skin a Cat.

I don't have to be a lawyer buruk, to know the Law.
I don't have to be a high court judge, to be able to Judge.
I don't have to be a police officer, to investigate my Cases.
I don't have to be a psychiatrist, to know how to combat mental illness.
I don't have to be a priest, to preach the Word odf God.
I don't have to be an I T expert, to be able to explore the computer.

Singapore lang men kia cheng hu. 'Coz Goh Chalk Thurng approved homosexuals working in government civil service departments in Singapore from duck rice in Mad Pherson Road to Boom Boom Room in Bugis Street. Just sut sama dia punya belakang. Boleh!

Malaysian Malay Pigs cannot rule Malaysia and be the first Malaysian Idol. Because they're "Too Phat" like BABI on the right and on the left of Badwi.(ex-Mathir : Zameel & Deena )

Ayam satiam masuk reban hospital makan ubat.

Mulut binatang ayam berpenyakit diam-lah, ayam satiam.

otak anjing berpenyakit diam-lah.

Dia berpenyakit sakit jiwa, anjing satiam.

climaxing diseases inside lan chiau wang pa tan mouth.

Fck u P.M., U.S.M., MM (Year 2000)!

macam-macam anjing ada, ada anjing berpenyakit sakit jiwa, menyalak berulang-ulang kali, tiap-tiap hari, sampai reban ayam mereput macam siput babi! Siput Sarawak-lah tu!

Do you know what is Kapal Sing favourite song? It's "Hard To Say I'm SORRY!!!"

A Fish Called Wanda is Parikabana. Ikan Pari is Ray Fish.

Question: Who's the No.1 "Sam Seng" Godfather in Singapore?
Answer: The Minister of Home Affairs, Wung Kang Seng.

Kelantan boy is Hell Boy is the bastard boy.

papa raping baby boy, Kelantan boy, Hell boy.

Kepala sakit makan kelapa sawit oil or babi oil not fish oil, omega3.

The excerption and views of the web site owner contained herein is purely from the author's own "disturbed" thoughts and opinions at the time of implementation of her accounts.


Deutronomy 28:7-28

All these curses shall come upon you:

Cursed you be in the (KL, Singapore and other) city

Cursed shall be your storage houses be

Cursed of your body

Cursed shall you be in everything you do, from beginning to end.

Cursed misfortune, destruction and fear upon everything you do until you are destroyed and perish quickly

Yahweh will punish you with fever and inflammation that shall pursue you until you die

Yahweh shall let you be defeated. (The song: "To Live and Die in L.A." by Tupac Shakur; 21 March 2002)

Yahweh shall strike you with the boils and plagues of Eygpt, with tumors, scurvy and itch, from which you cannot be healed.

Yahweh shall punish you with madness and blindness and confusion of mind

All these curses shall come upon you.



Do mentally sick-mentalists who reads a person's mind and express their thoughts by word(s) emmitted through their voice box into voice(s) that their targetted victim hears and when their victim counter-attacks these sick-mentalists, these sick-mentalists may also have the possibilities of suffering from schizophenia disorders and are schizophrenics themselves to a certain extent / degrees, only that they do not seek proper channels of treatment as in seeing the psychiatrists and taking oral psychiatric medications and psychiatric injections?

Think about it, would you? Then tell me what true justice is...


Harris ,

You said : " Women are not second class to men, unless they hold the belief that a man can marry 4 wives but a women cannot. " Are you implying indirectly that unless they are specifically MUSLIMS? To that effect only then they are second class citizens? Perhaps some of you who are Muslims yourselves care to comment, please?

You also said that : " The egg can be "fooled" to fertilize and produce baby mice without the need of the sperm... the power of THE WOMAN OF THE FUTURE! " We CATHOLICS specifically and firmly believe that IN THE PAST HISTORY, only the Blessed VIRGIN Mary became pregnant through the POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT AND BORE JESUS CHRIST. ( as written in the Gospel of Matthew)

In your following postings to this thread, it seemed to me that you are one of the typically discontended Singaporeans who felt that Singapore is a too rigid place to live in with so many rules and regulations to follow and also policies to adhere to. But then again, look at all the splendour surrounding your country. What more can you ask for with your abundant wealth and fortune? Harris? Well, I know, people will be people. They want somethings in life that money can or cannot buy. And some things are bought with material wealth wherelse some other things money just can't buy. Do you know what I mean? Things like honesty, truth, integrity, bravery love & justice, ........ These things are basic qualities of a heroic feat. So, don't be too engrossed in your daily lives that you have forgotten the true meaning of living and that is : TO SERVE GOD AND WORSHIP HIM ALONE. ( Matthew Chapter 4 Verses 8, 9 & 10 )

Psychiatric medications ???

Psychiatric medications conceals the mind and seals the truth but do not heal the mind nor the body neither the soul !!!

Psychiatrists knows nothing about how paranoid schizophrenia evolved!

A type of schizophrenia characterized primarily by delusions of persecution or grandiosity or hallucinations with persecutory or grandiose content. Delusional jealousy is often part of the disorder and any of a number of associated symptoms may be found, including unfocused anxiety, anger, argumentativeness, doubts about gender identity, stilted formal quality, aloofness. Unlike many other forms of schizophrenia, the patient is usually of relatively normal appearance and clean in habits and if the delusions are not acted on impairment in functioning may be minimal.

Schizophrenia in remission !!!

A diagnostic label used for cases in which the patient has had a history of schizophrenia but currently is symptom-free. The term is used whether or not the individual is taking medication for the disorder. Just how long the person should remain free of symptoms before the diagnostic label is dropped is a matter of dispute among authorities.

Psychiatrists are actually medicine dispensers !

Most or all psychiatrists are actually medicine dispensers because that's about all they do - prescribe psychiatric medications and give stupid advise ! Futhermore, they do not know the real cause for schizophrenia up to this very day which is a cover-up & a fraud and are delusioned that it is triggered by chemical imbalances of the human brain. What a scumbag !

Stay Alive & Be Well !

  • If you're cracking up, go and die!
  • (In Chinese, we say:) Lu siau liau, lu ki si-lah!
  • (In Malay, we say:) Lu gila-dah, lu pi mati-lah!
  • You can either choose to cremate yourself in a crematorium or bury yourself six-feet underground. Whichever way you choose to die, the worms that eat you will never die and the fire that burns you will never fade. You will definately go to Hell and that is where you rightfully belong!

    So stay Alive and Be Well for Heaven's sake!


    To say the one word: SORRY! is the answer? Well, this has been deceptively proclaimed by false prophets in this generation in the last years. What's in t-h-e word? SORRY? HUH! My foot! (or rather, my ass, you mean?)

    To forgive is one thing and to be forgiven is another. Let me ask you a question. You said that " you have forgiven others when cruel remarks are expounded" but do you think that your "forgiven foes" (as in the case of a schizophrenia sufferer) who have access to your thoughts have forgiven you as well and have not repeated what they did to you before, day and night without relief? You say that you have recovered? Please give me a precise definition of "recovered". Do you not get to hear intrusion thoughts expressed in your mind alone at times? Even with or without medication?


    The Co-existence of God.

    People's minds have been conditioned to have faith and even believe in the existence of the UNSEEN GOD and all other unseen religious deities including (the Son of God) Jesus Christ's existence who is void of sin yet came as a human being which happened in over the last two milleniums ago.

    But would humankind / people of today accept & woship THE GOD (and/or respect his/her cohorts) if they were to co-exist this very day and time in the image and likeness of a human being?

    I doubt it so.

    No doubt - Don't speak !!


    I hope you like this, if you are currently seeing the psychiatrist at IMH & taking their psychiatric medications and injections, you are labelled as a WOODBRIDGE MENTAL PATIENT !

    Dealing game, anyone?

    Schizophrenia is actually a mind playing game like a deck of cards. You got to deal it and deal with it. So, be a dealer in your dealings ... ( If you know what I mean by reading my mind ! )

    I Am the Master of Minds .




    It is actually good to feel HATE in your heart. Hate can be a hidden foundation of LOVE and that means we as human beings do HATE certain things and people for example, we HATE to tolerate the existence of child abusers, paedophiles, molesters, rapists, murderers, terrorists, liars, adulterers, homosexuals, etc, etc, etc... and the list of people we do often HATE goes on and on. You know who they are.

    So, why do we HATE? Because we are brought up as children into adults and been doctrinated by the world around us TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER as told by Christians and yourself alike. But when we see and hear news around us and globally, there is actually a lot of HATE that develops in us towards the negative aspects of life and the evil peoples around us.

    The point is it's okay to have HATRED in your heart because after you hate, there might be a possibility that LOVE might SURPASS ALL HATRED in the world of your own. And when that happens, you know you have found the RIGHT PERSON in your life.

    And the holy and evil people now co-exists with one another but not after Jesus separates the goats from the sheeps...

    To Mr Peter Timusk :


    I have read some of your awesome blogs and must admit that you are such a capable man even with schizophrenia. You seem to be able to function as normal as a sane person should and even does some volunteer work plus managing this newsgroup and what have you not. It's just so amazing!

    You also have a lovely and wonderful and beautiful wife to keep you company for the rest of your life! And also a caring and reputable father to help out in the finances. Wow! You are so lucky, man!

    Now, my only request would be for you to carry out your inspiration and legacy onto your natural offspring(s), I insist. I will be looking forward to this phenomena(s).

    Looking for Recovered Youths.

    Hello everybody !

    I'm looking for R-E-C-O-V-E-R-E-D youths in their early or mid thirties who would be able to offer constructive and applicable advise to me, specifically. I would appreciate it if you are functioning as per normal-sane persons would and not taking any medications of any sort whether legal or illegal!

    Looking for Recovered Youths.


    If you are OLD (in your forties, fifties or even sixties), currently taking any form of psychiatric medications or illegal substances, have occassional episodes of violence and uncontrollable behavioural manifestations and even ??? - PLEASE DO NOT EVEN TRY TO REPLY TO THIS POSTINGS ! THANK YOU.


    There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives away fear, for fear has to do with punishment; those who fear do not know perfect love.

    So let us love one another, since He loved us first. (1 John 4 :18 & 19 )


    Jesus said, " Father, forgive them for they do not know what they do." ( Luke 23 :34 )

    Jesus died on the cross for the forgiveness of sins. And that sin originated from the sin committed by one man. That is ADAM.

    So Christ is the mediator of a new covenant or testament. His death made atonement for the sins committed under the old testament, and the promise is handed over to all who are called to the everlasting inheritance.

    However, would a society like Singapore, for example, as a whole put into practice "forgiving one another" as doctrinated by Christians across the globe?

    Would Chief Justice Yong Pung How have upped sentences or completely forgiven the criminals and set them free after an appeal was made?

    Would ex-Chief Justice Wee Chong Jin not had sentenced certain "sinners" to be hanged and let them free because of an act of sinning?

    Should there be no man-made laws to protect society and at the same time punishment to be meted out to sinners alike and even consider rehabilitation programs?

    Think about it, would you........ then tell me what exactly does preaching "forgiveness and love one another" that is practical in our society in our time to this day means.

    We know that the Law is good, as long as it serves its purpose. The Law is not for the righteous, but for the lawless and for the wicked and sinful, for those who do not respect God and religion, for those who kill their parents, for murderers, for those who indulge in unlawful sex and homosexuality, for kidnappers and exploiters, for liars and perjurers and for all that is contrary to sound doctrine.

    See that no one deceives you with philosophy or any hollow discourse; these are merely human doctrines not inspired by Christ but by the wisdom of this world. Jesus is the head of all cosmic power and authority, and in Him you have everything.

    Set your mind on the things that are above not on earthly things !

    The end of all things is near; live wisely and spend evening time praying. Above all, let your love for one another be sincere, for love covers a multitude of sins.

    Jesus will be coming soon, bringing with Him the reward He will pay to each one according to his / her deeds.

    ( References : Hebrews 9 : 15, 1 Timothy 1 : 8-10, Collossians 2 : 8 & 10, Collosians 3 : 2, 1 Peter 4 : 7, Revelation 22 : 12 )


    The foolish are deceived by vain and false hopes; dreams give them wings.

    To rely on dreams is like grasping a shadow or chasing the wind. What you see in dreams are only reflections : a person sees his own image.

    What clean thing can come from what is unclean? What truth comes from what is false? Divinations, omens and dreams are empty like the fantasies of a woman in labor.

    Unless they come as messengers of the Most High, do not pay attention to them. For dreams have led many people astray. Those who hoped in them have fallen.

    Not so the Law, which never fails but comes true. Wisdom from the truthful lips of God is the highest truth.

    ( Reference : Sirach 34: 1 - 8 )

    THE DOCTOR (not necessarily the psychiatrists)

    Give due honor to the doctor, for you need him and God himself established him.

    Healing, in fact, comes from the Most High; the gift of healing comes from the Sovereign.

    The doctor’s expertise gives him prestige and wins for him the admiration of the powerful.

    The Lord created the medicinal herbs which grow on the earth, and these a sensible person will not despise.

    Remember that he used a simple wooden rod to purify water and so make known his power to everyone.

    It is he who gives knowledge to men so that his power be glorified; the doctor uses it to heal and comfort, the chemist to make his mixtures. In that way the Lord’s work never ceases and well-being prevails on the earth.

    When you are sick do not be anxious; pray to the Lord to heal you. Give up bad habits, keep your hands unsoiled, and purify your heart from all sin.

    Offer incense and a memorial gift of fine flour and rich offerings according to your means. Then consult the doctor; remember that he was established by the Lord, so do not disregard him – you need him. There are cases when good health depends on doctors. They, too, will pray to the Most High to grant them success in healing in order to save life.

    May he who sins before his Maker, fall into the hands of the doctor !

    ( Reference : Sirach 38: 1 – 15 )


    Warn certain persons not to teach false doctrine or to concern themselves with fables and endless genealogies. These give rise to discussions rather than promoting a better service of God through faith. The aim of our warning is love which comes from a pure mind, a good conscience and sincere faith.

    These people forbid marriage and condemn the use of certain foods which God created for those who know the truth, and which the believers receive with thanksgiving. Everything created by God is good, and all food is lawful; nothing is to be rejected if we receive it with thanksgiving, for it is blessed with the word of God and prayer, and made holy.

    If you explain these things to the brothers and sisters, you will prove to be a good servant of Christ Jesus, nourished by the teachings of faith and the sound doctrine which you have followed. Reject irreligious fables and old wives' tales. Train yourself in godliness. Physical trainning is of limited value; godliness, instead, is useful in every way, holding promise for the present life and for the life to come. Here you have a sure doctrine you can trust. We toil and endure because we trust in living God, the Saviour of all, especially of those who believe.

    Just as there have been false prophets in the midst of the people of Israel, so will there be false teachers among you. They will introduce harmful sects and, by denying the Master who saved them, they will bring upon themselves sudden perdition. Many, nonetheless, will imitate their vices and because of them the Way of Truth will be dicredited. They will take advantage of you with deceitful words for the sake of money. But their condemnation has already begun and their destruction awaits them.

    So, then, the Lord knows how to free from trial those who serve him and keep the wicked for punishment on the Day of Judgement.

    With their boastful and empty discourses, they encourage the lust and impure desire of those who have just freed themselves from the common errors.

    There are, however, some points in them that are difficult to understand, which people who are ignorant and immature in their faith twist, as they do with the rest of the Sciptures, to their own destruction.

    The Word of God maintains the present heavens and earth until their destruction by fire; they are kept for the Day of Judgement when the godless will be destroyed.

    We wait for a new heaven and a new earth in which justice reigns, according to God's promise.

    ( Reference : 1 Timothy 1: 3-5, 1 Timothy 4: 3-10, 2 Peter 2: 1-3,9 & 18, 2 Peter 3: 7,13 & 16 )

    True Wisdom

    If you consider yourself wise and learned, show it by your good life and let your actions, in all humility, be an example for others. But if your heart is full of bitter jealousy and ambition, do not try to show off; that would be covering up the truth; this kind of wisdom does not come from above but from the world and it is earthly and devilish. Wherever there is jealousy and ambition, you will also find discord and all that is evil. Instead, the wisdom which comes from above is pure and peace-loving. Persons with this wisdom show understanding and listen to advise; they are full of compassion and good works; they are impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow peace reap a harvest of justice.

    ( Reference : James 3: 13-18 )

    Preach the Word

    All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful for teaching, refuting error, for correcting and training in Christian life. Through Scripture the man of God is made expert and thoroughly equipped for every good work.

    There are, however, some points in them that are difficult to understand, which people who are ignorant and immature in their faith twist, as they do with the rest of the Sciptures, to their own destruction.

    In the presence of God and Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by the hope I have of his coming and his kingdom, I urge you to preach the Word, in season and out of season, reproving, rebuking or advising, always with patience and providing instruction. For the time is coming when people will no longer endure sound doctrine but will be so eager to hear what is new, that they will never have enough teachers after their own liking. And they will abondon the truth to hear fables. So be prudent, do not mind your labour, give yourself to your work as an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.

    Do not take part in useless conversations, alien to the faith. This leads to a greater lack of faith.

    Avoid stupid and senseless discussions, since such are the cause of misunderstanding.

    ( Reference : 2 Timothy 2: 16,23 ; 3: 16 & 17 ; 4: 1-5 ; 2 Peter 3: 16 )

    Love of money

    Whoever teaches in some other way, not following the sound teaching of our Lord Christ Jesus and true religious instruction, is conceited and understands nothing. This one is crazy about controversies and discussions which result in envy, insults, blows and constant arguments between people of depraved minds and far from the truth. For them, religion is merely for financial gain.

    In reality, religion is a treasure if we are content with what we have. We brought nothing into the world and we will leave it with nothing. Let us then be content with having food and clothing. Those who strive to be rich fall into temptations and traps. A lot of foolish and harmful ambitions plunge them into ruin and destruction. Indeed, the love of money is the root of every evil. Because of this greed, some have wandered away from the faith, bringing on themselves afflictions of every kind.

    But you, man of God, shun all this. Strive to be holy and godly. Live in faith and love, with endurance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of faith and win everlasting life to which you were called when you made the good profession of faith in the presence of so many witnesses.

    Command the rich of this world not to be arrogant or to put their trust in the uncertainty of wealth. Let them rather trust in God who generously gives us all we need for our happiness. Let them do good, be rich in good deeds and be generous; let them share with others. In this way, they shall heap up a sound capital for the future and gain true life.

    Avoid useless and profane words, as well as discussions arising from false knowledge. Some have lost the faith in accepting such knowledge.

    ( Reference : 1 Timothy 6 : 3-12, 7-21 )

    Difficult times

    Be quite sure that there will be difficult times in the last days. People will become selfish, lovers of money, boastful, conceited, gossips, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy. They will be unable to love and forgive; they will be slanderers, without self-control, cruel, enemies of good, traitors, shameless, full of pride, more in love with pleasure than with God. They will keep the appearance of piety, while rejecting its demands. Keep away from such people.

    Of the same kind are those who enter houses and captivate weak women, full of sins, swayed by all kinds of passion, who are always learning but never grasping knowledge of the truth. These people of corrupt mind and false faith oppose the truth just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses. Yet they may not go very far, for their folly will be clear to all, as in the case of those two.

    All who want to serve God in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evil persons and impostors will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived.

    ( Reference : 2 Timothy 3: 1-9, 12 & 13 )

    "The Mentally Sick-Mentalist" vs "The Schizophrenics"

    Schizophrenia, is it a general label for a number of psychotic disorders with various cognitive, emotional and behavioural manifestations? Although there are various distinguishable schizophrenias which display differing etiologies and have distinguishable prognoses, certain features are taken as hallmarks of all, that is: a pattern of psychotic features including thought disturbances, bizarre delusions, hallucinations ( usually auditory ), disturbed sense of self and a loss of reality testing. Mentalist like Deddy Corbuzier from Indonesia, Gerard Senehi from New York, Shaun Tan from Malaysia and Christopher Caldwell, among others, who bent keys, made cigarettes fly through the air, glass stems bend and stunned the audience by correctly predicting the day’s events & especially, (i would like to emphasize here) read the mind of another person. These mentalist, as they are called, are entertainers who spellbound their audiences as they perform mind reading acts which cites aloud what the other person is thinking and is accurate in his citings . The mentalists makes the cigarette levitate! It's a defiance of the laws of physics! Gravity is a word that does not exist in this man's vocabulary. At one end of the spectrum, there is Uri Geller, the famous seventies mentalist who grandiosely claimed (and still does) that it was his own supernatural gifts that enabled him to bend spoons; at the other, there is James Randi, an accomplished magician who made a name for himself by exposing the hokum of Geller and his ilk. (In 1996, he even offered $1 million to anyone who could demonstrate evidence of the paranormal in a setting he controlled. The prize is still unclaimed.)

    The mentalists loves reading other peoples' minds... But don't people get scared? Some get terrified, it's scary to think that someone can read your mind. Mind Reading is for everyone interested in covering the entire spectrum of human emotions recognising emotional expression and intent in others. It enables the user to study emotions and to learn the meanings of facial expressions and tone of voice, among other things. It may sound like an achievement of some sort to be able to read one's mind and that of others. But in reality, (to me), mind reading (used for evil purposes) is an invasion of one's dignity and privacy as used by many throughout centuries in harming others to inflict disturbing emotional annoyance, irritability and manifesting violence in their victims throughout the day for the rest of his or her lifetime resulting in the term - schizophrenia.

    If you work in one of the most cynical professions, spending the bulk of your days with crusty, hard-nosed realists who smirk at anything vaguely sentimental or, gasp, "spiritual." We deal with cold, hard facts, and nothing pleases us more than to catch someone in a lie.

    I want people to be realistic about what I think because some people are overly skeptical, while others over-believe and leave no room for common sense. I would rather people be somewhere in-between.

    By mastering (somehow) reading another mind's thoughts, one is capable of knowing the entire history of the victim over the years and also concluding or predicting his/her emotional and behavioural manifestations in whatever circumstances, past, present or future. In these scenarios, I can conclude that they are capable of controlling and/or creating havoc for its victims knowing what his/her negative emotional outcome will be and his/her fears and angers are.

    So how do one overcome this situation that has become a negative influence impacted in our lives? This mind reading "talent" that has greatly affected our emotions and intentions from the darts of the evil and wicked ones. It is my firm believe that there are only 2 major types of people. Those who do good in nature and those who are evil in their intent & belong to the Evil One. Either you go to Hell or Heaven on The Day of The Lord. Period. No bargainings. No halfways.

    With the help of the heavenly hosts and your own ability level, you may be able to be the one controlling the mentalists' emotional thoughts & behavioural manifestations instead of being manipulated by others.

    Do turn around and get a grip of your own emotions and behaviours and also be in control of your attackers' emotions & behaviours for they are your lifetime enemies.

    Be brave and you can fight this all alone as no one, I repeat, no one except yoursef can help you overcome your traumas with the exception of the heavenly hosts.

    Good luck and may the heavens above reward you with the justice that you are forever seeking!

    My Enemies' Voices ( An ACT of a group of SICK-Mentalists and a SYMBOL of HELL !!! )

    It is easier said than done or practised.

    I discovered that these unwanted 'voices' are not my conscious or unconscious voice and that I am capable of realising what my beliefs are as to prior to my mental illness. Although certain 'voices' may at times quote what is in my thoughts when I am not hostile towards these 'voices' or when I am in a calm situation. (thought-broadcasting)

    The 'negative voices' will try to cause chaos to my thoughts and feed fear and anger as well as interrupt my flow of carrying out a task like that of reading and writing.

    Some 'voices' are very close while others are at a distance. Both male and female 'voices' are heard taking turns to persecute me. But mostly female. The male ones would make sounds or suggestive ideas. The ones that duplicate members of the family and friends and some other familiar voice are the most frequently heard and these 'voices' will try to doctrinate delusions and beliefs that are contradictory and annoying.

    I am also constantly attacked even in my dreams whereby they will try to manipulate the contents of my unconscious sublimal state of mind. They will operate 24 hours a day with no relief for their victims.

    Fortunately, I can identify who may be the root of these 'voices' and counter attack their thoughts and beliefs to cause irritations and instill fear amongst the group of 'voices' by working little 'miracles' and a few answered prayers from my religions.

    I know that they are also experiencing attacks from me as they will respond in a way that shows their increase in the frequency and intensity of these 'voices'.

    I like attacking them as well because they are ALL my enemies.


    The following excerpt taken from somewhere in the internet newsgroup ( is a revelation of : An ACT of RETRIBUTION and a SYMBOL of JUSTICE !!! This is a mirage of what to expect of things to come in the near or distant future that is certain. CHICKEN(S) - AYAM - KAI !!!


    My introduction to this group--pt. 1

    I once spent seven years locked in an 8'x 15' cell in a sanatorium. I didn't realize that it was seven years until after I had been released and they told me. It's very easy to lose track of time when you are isolated in a cell and have very little outside stimuli.

    A nurse visited me most every day, but they rarely spoke. They only watched me for a few minutes and left. If I spoke to them, they would write things down in a notebook and leave. There were always two or sometimes four large orderlies accompanying them. I was told it was for security purposes. I had a window that I could look out of, but I was not allowed visitors, books, writing instruments, cigarettes, or personal items.

    The psychiatrist would visit me periodically, seeming to be about once a week, but I can't be sure of that. He or she would ask me banal questions, take down notes, and leave. They rarely answered any questions that I posed.

    My meals were served to me through a narrow slot in the door on a plastic tray. There were two meals per day. I could never get enough to eat. I was never allowed utensils and ate with my hands. I had no shower or bath, but I did have a toilet and basin. Periodically, the nurse would bring me a cake of soap, a cloth, and a towel so that I could bath from the basin under the close scrutiny of the orderlies. I was never allowed to retain possession of those items when not in use.

    From my window, I could see a field leading out toward a small coppice. Sometimes I could see animals crossing the meadow into or out of the woods. Looking out of the window was one of my favorite pastimes.

    I could sometimes hear muted activity on the other side of my door, but I was never allowed to interact or see any of the other patients. There were occasions when I was taken from my room for treatments, but I was always restrained and hooded so that I could not see anything.

    My bed was comfortable, but I was not allowed bed sheets. I was not allowed clothing of any kind, either. I was told that it was a safety issue. On occasion, I would be restrained for days at a time in a device commonly referred to as a straightjacket. It is very difficult to take care of bodily wastes and effect personal hygiene when restrained in one of these devices. They did this when they claimed I was being "disruptive." They did not like it when I attempted to strangle or pummel one of the staff that came into my cell. This was often followed with a regimen of "zombifying" poisons that they described as medicinal. I didn't care for those poisons being injected into my body. The staff treated me quite poorly and did not seem concerned for my welfare. I took great pride from the fact that I once permanently blinded an orderly as I tore his eyes from his sockets and crushed them in my hands. I felt certain that my actions would secure a transfer to another facility, perhaps less harsh, but no transfer ever occurred. They only transferred me to a much smaller room that lacked any kind of light whatsoever. The room with no light did not contain a toilet or a basin, either. My food was passed to me in a bucket through some kind of shelf that prevented light from penetrating into the cell. I did not like that room very much, but I made several close friends there. I have no idea how long they kept me there, but it seemed like a year or more passed before they transferred me back to a room with light and a window.

    The winters were cold outside because ice would form on the exterior of my window, but my room was always warm. It was sometimes too warm during the summer months, but I guess it was because the air conditioning units functioned less effectively than the boilers.

    During my time in the sanatorium, I would occupy my time by looking out the window, sleeping, and doing exercise. I would walk or jog around the perimeter of the room, I would do hundreds of press-ups a day, and hundreds of sit-ups. I would do thousands of jumping jacks, hundreds of deep knee bends, and would jump rope without a rope until I fell over from exhaustion.

    I would have conversations with voices in my head to keep me company due to the lack of outside stimuli. I made many wonderful companions during those years and I still keep in touch with many of those voices.

    The first book I read after I was released was "The Prince" by Machiavelli. Soon after, I read "The Art of War" by Sun Tzu. I also took a nice hot bath and ate boiled cabbage and fried rice. I enjoy a nice cup of tea. Only candles light my room. I have 27 candles lit from morning until night. I enjoy looking at the disembodied shadows of my friends as they dance the shadow dance on the walls of my room. I like to stay in my room and pray and plot against my enemies.

    I think I would make a great tyrant. A modern day Caligula.

    Enough writing for now. Perhaps I will follow up with more at another time.







    You have the right to unrestricted and private communication inside and outside this facility including the following rights:

      a. To a peaceful assembly and to join with other patients to organize a body of or participate in patient government when patient government has been determined to be feasible by the facility.

      b. To be assisted by any advocate of your choice in the assertion of your rights and to see a lawyer in private at any time.

      c. To make complaints and to have your complaints heard and adjudicated promptly.

      d. To receive visitors of your own choice at reasonable hours unless your treatment team has determined in advance that a visitor or visitors would seriously interfere with your or others. treatment or welfare.

      e. To receive and send unopened letters and to have outgoing letters stamped and mailed. Incoming mail may be examined for good reason in your presence for contraband. Contraband means specific property which entails a threat to your health and welfare or to the hospital community.

      f. To have access to telephone designated for patient use.

    2. You have the right to practice the religion of your choice or to abstain from religious practices.

    3. You have the right to keep and to use personal possessions, unless it has been determined that specific personal property is contraband. The reasons for imposing any limitation and its scope must be clearly defined, recorded and explained to you. You have the right to sell any personal article you made and keep the proceeds from its sale.

    4. You have the right to handle your personal affairs including making contracts, holding a driver's license or professional license, marrying, or obtaining a divorce and writing a will.

    5. You have the right to participate in the development and review of your treatment plan.

    6. You have the right to receive treatment in the least restrictive setting within the facility necessary to accomplish the treatment goals.

    7. You have the right to be discharged from the facility as soon as you no longer need care and treatment.

    8. You have the right not to be subjected to any harsh or unusual treatment.

    9. If you have been involuntarily committed in accordance with civil court proceedings, and you are not receiving treatment, and you are not dangerous to yourself or others, and you can survive safely in the community, you have the right to be discharged from the facility.

    10. You have a right to be paid for any work you do which benefits the operation and maintenance of the facility in accordance with existing Federal wage and hour regulations.

    "Schizophrenic" Emotions

    It's about mind control effecting in a varied emotional manifestations of the elitism's strong instinctive feelings.

    To have empathy is to have the ability to identify oneself mentally with, and so understand, a person or thing.

    I have an egregious and effusive way of expressing my thoughts via my means of propagating my empirical experiences.

    Accidental events and fate are guided by an unseen hand; the outcome may be determined by analytical actions, but there is that undeniable existence of a mysterious spiritual world.

    This is my visceral point of view.

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    Mark 10:23

    Jesus looked around at his disciples and said to them, "How hard it will be for rich people to enter the Kingdom of God!"

    Matthew 7:21-23

    "Not everyone who calls me 'Lord, Lord' will enter the Kingdom of Heaven, but only those who do what my Father in Heaven wants them to do.

    When the Judgement Day comes, many will say to me, 'Lord, Lord! In your name we spoke God's message, by your name we drove out many demons and performed many miracles!'

    Then I will say to them, 'I never knew you. Get away from me, you wicked people!'

    Revelation 14:9-11

    "Whoever worships the beast and its image and receives the mark on his forehead or on his hand will himself drink God's wine, the wine of his fury, which he has poured at full strength into the cup of his anger! All who do this will be tormented in fire and sulfur before the holy angels and the Lamb. The smoke of the fire that torments them goes up forever and ever. There is no relief day or night for those who worship the beast and its image, for anyone who has the mark of its name."

    Revelation 20:10

    Then the Devil, who deceived them, was thrown into the lake of fire and sulfur, where the beast and the false prophet had already been thrown; and they will be tormented day and night forever and ever.

    Revelation 20:15

    Whoever did not have his name written in the book of the living was thrown into the lake of fire.

    Revelation 21:8

    "...But cowards, traitors, perverts, murderers, the immoral, those who practice magic, those who worships idols, and all liars - the place for them is the lake burning with fire and sulfur, which is the second death."

    Jesus put a parable before the crowds, ‘The kingdom of heaven may be compared to a man who sowed good seed in his field. While everybody was asleep his enemy came, sowed darnel all among the wheat, and made off. When the new wheat sprouted and ripened, the darnel appeared as well. The owner's servants went to him and said, "Sir, was it not good seed that you sowed in your field? If so, where does the darnel come from?" "Some enemy has done this" he answered. And the servants said, "Do you want us to go and weed it out?" But he said, "No, because when you weed out the darnel you might pull up the wheat with it. Let them both grow till the harvest; and at harvest time I shall say to the reapers: First collect the darnel and tie it in bundles to be burnt, then gather the wheat into my barn."

    Matthew 13 : 24-30

    Leaving the crowds, Jesus went to the house; and his disciples came to him and said, ‘Explain the parable about the darnel in the field to us.' He said in reply, ' The sower of the good seed is the Son of Man. The field is the world; the good seed is the subjects of the kingdom; the darnel, the subjects of the evil one; the enemy who sowed them, the devil; the harvest is the end of the world; the reapers are the angels. Well then, just as the darnel is gathered up and burnt in the fire, so it will be at the end of time. The Son of Man will send his angels and they will gather out of his kingdom all things that provoke offences and all who do evil, and throw them into the blazing furnace, where there will be weeping and grinding of teeth. Then the virtuous will shine like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. Listen, anyone who has ears!’

    Matthew 13 : 36-43

    "Some paranoid schizophrenics believe they're the targets of vast government conspiracies." (

    Paranoid Schizophrenics Hardest to Treat.

    - delusional people trapped in a world of sensory overload, ranting about government conspiracies, Satan or some other malevolent force controlling their lives.

    In, Lisa Gardner wrote:

    I believe that there is a large psychic network, and that psychic control is exercised through it by people who want to configure certain other people's minds and lives in their, the 'controllers', interests.

    There is abuse that goes on through these means, and people around the 'target' person are 'piloted' via this 'psychic control network' into doing things that will harm or hurt or whatever action is being aimed for, the 'target' person.

    It essentially amounts to demonic harrassment, with the demons being the entities that exercise the control on the network.

    A Reply on 07 April 2002

    Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for your postings and would also like to apologise for the delay in replying as I was very busy last week and had only read your emails yesterday.

    Well, yes. I am a Malaysian and am currently suffering from schizophrenia.

    In my findings, I've discovered that yes to a certain extent there must be some scientific explanation of the cause of schizophrenia being the chemical imbalances of the brain. Thus the need for medical treatment that is medications.

    In view of the intensity of these ritualistic tormentations (but not for long as I strongly believe that there is eternal salvation at the end of this world which is coming soon!), of course, I do not deny that once a person with schizophrenia is blinded by extreme rage, it can be dangerous and detrimental to both oneself and others around him/her.

    This outrageous anger is usually caused by the instigated, troublemakers "voices" heard taking turns to persecute and provoke anger and frustrations amongst their victims by hurling insults, hateful, degrading and fearful word. Thus, you would normally see those untreated schizophrenics "scolding" at an unseen persons which is not surprising.

    If you take on the perception of an uncorrupted mind of a 2 year old toddler, then you may very well succeed in overcoming any obstacles that are put forward by your visible enemies. However, with the persecutory enemies we, schizophrenics are facing are your so called "delusional" oppressors causing tormentations within your soul. That's quite different. But the principle still applies. It takes Divine mercy, compassion and love to be able to tolerate beyond our human power to be able to resist any counter-attacks toward our continous vicious cycle of oppressors.

    But considering that I am a victim of such a circumstances as schizophrenia, I want to have more insight into the illness and transcend into a higher understanding of self and to be able to belong to a certain community group whereby we can share our faith interchangeably with similar relations and be of any service in collaboration with others.



    Hi there Zephyr,

    Its good to know that you could share your worst fears with someone like your phychiatrist, for example. But I know what its like to be given totally unhelpful advises which even I could have suggested myself yet to no effect. In short, ineffective responses to our dillemmas. What I was looking for was answers that will make a difference and also bold statements that would knock some sense into me and let me gain greater insight into my illness!

    Max Q.

    Another Perception on Schizophrenia:

    Sent: 8/3/2002 1:18 PM

    Patients tend to be violent, angered and making signs with their hands and fingers because, in my perception, they are "interacting" or rather, they are emotionally disturbed and provoked by these "voices" that they want to punish, lash out at and take revenge upon these hallucinations and that's why they are scolding back at unseen persons and wanting to beat up the persons emitting those voices that only they can hear.

    I believe that these voices which only the victim could hear is being manipulated by certain groups or individuals using the spiritual realm which is undoubtedly in existence, (only that we are ignorant about it) to promote harm and utmost emotional distress upon their victims.

    I think that those dirty scums emiting those "voices" should be punished and be institutionalized, deeply medicated as they are the ones who are the real troublemakers... only that we don't really know who the identities of these scums are so we can't prosecute them and punish them justifiably.

    Sent: 8/5/2002 12:58 AM


    In the Book of Quran, Surat Al Infitar, I've read that:

    Verse 14: While the wicked shall be in Hell;
    15: Roasting therein on the Day of Judgement;
    16: Nor shall they ever absent from it.
    17: And how would you know what the Day of Judgement is?
    18: Again, how would you know what the Day of Judgement is?
    19: It is the Day when no soul can be of any help to any other soul, and when GOD Reigns Supreme.

    In Surat As Sajdah, Verse 13:

    If We had so willed, We could have given every soul its guidance (but every soul is entrusted with free will to chose between the Right Way or deviation), But I ordained: "I shall fill Hell with Jinn and mankind".

    Also, in the Bible, Revelation Chapter 14 Verses 9 to 11, it says that:

    "Whoever worships the beast and its image and receives the mark on his forehead or on his hand will himself drink God's wine, the wine of his fury, which he has poured at full strength into the cup of his anger! All who do this will be tormented in fire and sulfur before the holy angels and the Lamb. The smoke of the fire that torments them goes up forever and ever. There is no relief day or night for those who worship the beast and its image, for anyone who has the mark of its name."

    Verses 12: This calls for endurance on the part of God's people, those who obey God's commandments and are faithful to Jesus.

    Sent: 8/6/2002 6:16 PM

    I am a part-time counsellor and I have seen a remarkable improvement in the patient's responses to voices tomenting and attacking throughout the day through daily prayer, counter-attacks and scripture qouting of Bible, Quran verses . There has been significant improvements in the tolerance of these countless and endless attacks from whom I believe are manipulated by certain groups or individuals of living persons using spiritualism which I do not have access to this knowledge. However, these attacks are resulting in a delusional people trapped in a world of sensory overload, and an overload of electrode brain transmissions, or rather, an overload of emotional anger, turmoil and confusion, ranting about government conspiracies, Satan or some other malevolent force controlling their lives. Thus, it RESULTS into a brain disorder and a chemical imbalances of the brain.

    And therefore, also, the need to reduce these symptoms of this illness with some form of low dosage of medication and ultimately, counselling in the understanding and coping of this severe mental disorder.

    Sent: 8/11/2002 1:58 AM

    I heard from one victim's friend that one quarter of all patients at IMH (Institute of Mental Health, Singapore) have fully recovered and do not need any medication anymore.

    Is there anyone out there who have fully recovered and do not need medication? If so, please speak up.

    Any expert medical advise on statistics and research findings or experiments carried out and the possible causes that resulted in a complete recovery with no hallucinations or delusions whatsoever?

    (Constant overload of sensory emotional turmoil causes chemical imbalances of the brain or brain damage)

    Off-duty CNB KILLS mental patient !

    This is totally outrageous! The Cnb fella should have been charged for murdering the schizophrenic who although did not take his follow-up medication the past four months, is still a citizen of the country with equal rights as to a human being and do not deserve to be treated as some degradable entity. I strongly encourage you people out there who might be in the same boat to get the law in order for people like us and not let law-enforcement officers take the law into their own hands and determine who should die and who should not!!!

    Temple stay may help people with mental disorders

    A SHORT stay in a temple or place of worship can actually improve your mental health, a study has shown.

    For example, researchers in India found that a six-week stay at a Hindu temple can produce the same improvement in people with severe psychiatric disorders as a month-long course of standard medications.

    According to science journal New Scientist, a team led by Mr Ramanathan Raguram of the National Institute of Mental Health and Neurosciences in Bangalore studied all 31 people who came for help and stayed at the Muthuswamy temple between June and August 2000.

    The patients were evaluated by a trained psychiatrist. Six were diagnosed with delusional disorders, 23 with paranoid schizophrenia and two with bipolar disorder.

    At the end of their stay, their scores on a test called the Brief Psychiatric Rating Scale had improved by an average of nearly 20 per cent.

    No specific rituals or ceremonies intended to improve mental health were performed in the temple. The patients attended a simple morning prayer for 15 minutes, and then spent the rest of the day helping out with routine temple work.

    'What they were given was tender loving care in a non-threatening environment, in tune with their own cultural beliefs, with the hope of recovery,' said Mr Raguram. 'And in the history of psychiatry, these were the principles on which asylums were originally built.'

    The 31 patients had been suffering for an average of 71 weeks. Only one had received any professional care.

    The dramatic improvement in test scores matches those expected within four weeks of administering medicines such as chlorpromazine and risperidone, he said.

    Mr Assen Jablensky, an expert on mental disorders at the University of Western Australia, noted that such findings were not specific to India, or any particular faith.

    'For example, a 'treatment protocol' in many ways similar to the healing temple of Muthuswamy has been practised at the traditional therapeutic village of Aro in Nigeria,' he said.

    But he cautioned that such treatments should be considered as complementary to other approaches, and not an alternative.

    Source: The Straitstimes Interactive, Singapore. Tuesday, July 09, 2002.

    Source : Utusan Malaysia Online. Friday, 19 April, 2002.

    Antara genius dan tidak waras

    Judul: A BeautifuL Mind
    Arahan: Ron Howard
    Lakon Layar: Akiva Goldsman
    Pelakon: Russell Crowe, Jennifer Connelly, Ed Harris, Paul Bettany, Vivien Cardone dan lain-lain.

    Di manakah garis sempadan antara super genius dengan kegilaan atau dalam istilah lain dikenali juga sebagai schizoprenia? Garis sempadannya boleh sahaja menjadi kabur. Ini yang diperlihatkan oleh John Forbes Nash, si genius matematik yang menerima Anugerah Nobel pada tahun 1994. Dia pernah mengidap schizoprenia sebelum memenangi hadiah tersebut.

    Dalam sejarah manusia, ramai antara mereka yang terkenal sebagai genius telah mempamerkan sifat-sifat yang sekarang ini dikaitkan sebagai schizoprenia, tetapi sering disalahtafsir. Antaranya pelukis terkenal Vincent Van Gogh. Penyakit schizoprenia adalah sejenis gangguan mental yang kronik, misteri dan cukup tragik. Si pesakit selalunya tidak berupaya membezakan antara yang nyata dan yang datang dalam imaginasinya. Mereka akan mendengar suara dan sering melihat visual dalam halusinasi yang sebenarnya tidak wujud.

    Punca penyakit ini masih misteri dan belum diketahui. Saintis dan doktor masih belum dapat menjangka siapa yang akan mengidap schizoprenia, biarpun faktor genetik antara puncanya. Usaha mengesannya memakan masa bertahun. Schizoprenia ditandakan oleh kesan delusi, halusinasi, perbicaraan yang tidak jelas, perlakuan yang aneh atau juga kehilangan perasaan.

    Tetapi schizoprenia juga bersifat paradoks. Peringkat awalnya boleh sahaja memberikan kehebatan kreativiti dan kebijaksanaan. Bagaimanapun ia beransur menjadi kronik dan berbahaya apabila berlanjutan dan tidak dirawat.

    Filem A Beautiful Mind cuba menyingkap sebahagian kehidupan John Forbes Nash si genius matematik dan tragedi kehidupannya yang mengidap penyakit schizoprenia. John Nash bertanggungjawab memperkenalkan sejenis teori permainan yang dibina berasaskan matematik yang memungkinkan kedua belah pihak memenanginya.

    Dia mungkin sahaja mendapat inspirasinya dari permainan dan juga wanita-wanita yang ditemuinya di pub dan cuba dipikat olehnya. Yang penting teori ini bertanggungjawab mencipta konsep Nash equilibrium yang cukup berguna dalam memahami agenda ekonomi, peperangan, manipulasi perundangan atau tindakan sekumpulan orang. Secara mudah teori ini adalah strategi untuk meramal orang.

    A Beautiful Mind diarahkan oleh Ron Howard dengan lakon layar yang ditulis oleh Akiva Goldsman berdasarkan dari buku Sylvia Nassar. Nash si genius matematik ditampilkan seorang yang pemalu, sombong dan tidak banyak berbicara. Selain matematik, teman setianya hanyalah Charles Herman (Paul Bettany) iaitu teman sebiliknya yang kaki minum tetapi pada masa yang menggemari karya-karya sastera D.H. Lawrence.

    Selepas menamatkan pengajian di Princeton, Nash bertugas sebagai penyelidik dan pensyarah di Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT). Disinilah bermulanya gelombang baru dalam kariernya apabila Nash dalam halusinasinya menerima tetamu iaitu agen FBI William Parcher (Ed Harris) dan projek memecahkan kod perang Rusia bagi pihak kerajaan Amerika.

    Turut muncul dalam halusinasi Nash adalah Charles Herman bersama anaknya. Kemunculan William Parcher yang mendesak dan mengugut Nash menjadikan Nash semakin kacau dan paranoia. Dunia nyata dan imaginasinya berbaur dan Nash hilang pertimbangan. Yang turut memburukkan keadaan adalah kemunculan Herman. Mujur Alicia (Jennifer Connelly) isteri Nash berusaha memahami dan membantu mengembalikan Nash yang normal dengan membawa kembali Nash ke Universiti Princeton.

    Subjek schizoprenia dalam filem bukan perkara baru, tetapi filem ini cuba memberikan kita kefahaman tentang penyakit mental secara lebih realistik. Cuma schizoprenia yang menimpa Nash adalah sesuatu yang tidak jelas. Apakah kerana kematian bapanya, isterinya yang mengandung atau perasaan kebanggaan diri yang melampau.

    Russell Crowe sebagai John Nash yang hidup dan bergelut dengan dunia halusinasinya berjaya memberikan keyakinan dari gerak dan ekspresi wajahnya yang kosong, beku dan kacau itu. Dan apabila wajahnya beransur tua (walau pun di sebalik solekan) kekuatan lakonannya yang meyakinkan itu tetap terasa dan konsisten.

    Connelly sebagai Alicia tampil terkawal sebagai isteri yang penyayang tetapi berdepan dengan situasi yang begitu menyukarkan dan akhirnya terpaksa berkorban demi menyelamatkan suaminya. Bagaimanapun kemunculan Ed Harris dan Paul Bettany memperlengkapkan kekuatan lakonan dalam filem ini dengan lakonan mereka yang berkarisma.

    Sebuah filem biografi sebegini boleh saja cenderung untuk menjadi sentimental. Atau membosankan apatah lagi subjek yang dibicarakan adalah tentang seorang genius dengan dunia matematik yang sukar difahami itu.

    Tetapi Ron Howard dan Akiva Goldsman berusaha memberikan pendekatan yang lain, berusaha mencipta struktur cerita yang cukup dramatik biarpun ada bahagian yang dipergayakan daripada hanya sebuah struktur penceritaan secara literal. Ron Howard dan Akiva memberikan tumpuan terhadap usaha dan pergelutan Nash melawan penyakit schizoprenia selama 25 tahun itu.

    Bagaimanapun pada masa yang sama sebenarnya Ron Howard dan Akiva Goldsman hanya memberikan John Nash yang bersih yang berjaya melalui liku mencabar dalam hidupnya, sedangkan kisah hidup Nash yang lebih gelap seperti skandal biseksual dan hubungan seksual seperti mana yang dicatatkan dalam buku Sylvia Nassar tidak dipaparkan.

    Ini kerana Akiva Goldsman masih terikat dengan pendekatan naratif Hollywood yang ketat dan kemas. Pendekatan yang kelihatan sesuai dengan kehendak Anugerah Akademi. Filem A Beautiful Mind memenangi empat anugerah Akademi termasuk Filem Terbaik dan Pengarah Terbaik.

    Source: THE STAR, Saturday, March 16, 2002.

    Don't harp on old bilateral issues, Goh tells Malaysia

    Taking issue with a Malaysian journalist who Singapore Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong said had belittled Singapore as an "irritating pimple that refuses to burst", Goh said: "I suppose Singapore's refusal to play younger brother irritates him."

    Question: Adam from the Book of Genesis has two sons. What are the names of the sons? Who was in favour of God - the younger brother or the elder brother?

    Answer: Cain (Russell Chow) is the elder brother and Abel (Brandon) is the younger brother. God was in favour of the younger brother because he offered better sacrifices to God and was not defiled by women, are virgins and do not tell lies wherelse the elder brother represents injustice, child abuse, child sexual abuse, bestiality incest, bastard as a by-product of incest, prostitution in a brothel house, an instigator of annoyance, the provoker of all troubles, nuinsance neighbours, corrupt practices, black/ false magic, spells, charms, withcraft, cause of schizophrenia disorders, invasion of privacy, hatred, drug addiction, outrage of modesty, housebreaking, cheating, illegal smuggling, illegal activities .... and the list of lowest scums family and unlawful wrongdoings goes on endlessly.

    God punished everyone in Sodom & Gommorrah with fire and sulfur but saved only one person that is Lot. At Lot 10, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, whenever you look at your watches on the Ground Floor, be in love "Head-Over-Heels" with a young guy, "Brandon" (Sai) because he will be the only one saved from the fires of Hell but all his families and relatives shall perish and be tormented in the fires of everlasting Hell!

    ALWAYS start with ADAM from the Book of GENESIS, jump to Deutronomy Chapter 22, Verses 17, plus Exodus, Leviticus to Joshua, 1 Kings & 2 Kings to 2 Chronicles, Ezra, Nehemiah, Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, Hosea, Joel to Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah and Malachi and the Gospels right up to the Book of the Revelations!

    Source: The Straitstimes Interactive, April 01, 2002. Monday

    On claims made by the Malaysian media that Singapore's reclamation works had degraded the quality of the waters off the coast of Johor, Singapore's Environment Minister Lim Swee Say said the Republic was doing whatever it could to keep the Straits of Johor clean.

    The most important step was the construction of the deep tunnel sewerage system, which was expected to be ready in four to five years, he said.

    The $7-billion system will channel sewage from the east to the west of the island and release it into the open sea, after it has been treated.

    Mr Lim said that when the system was ready, Singapore would no longer discharge treated sewage water into the straits.

    Source: The Straitstimes Interactive, August 06, 2002. Monday

    'Singapore won't renew water deal in 2011'

    SINGAPORE will not renew a decades-old water agreement with Malaysia after it expires in 2011, but would keep buying water if a price could be agreed, the official Malaysian news agency Bernama reported.

    Prime Minister Goh Chok Tong delivered the message to Malaysian Domestic Trade and Consumer Affairs Minister Muhyiddin Yassin, at a meeting on Monday, Bernama reported, citing Tan Sri Muhyiddin.

    Officials could not immediately confirm the report, which came against a backdrop of demands by Malaysia to raise prices for the water it ships to Singapore under a pair of agreements extending to mid-century.

    Mr Goh said that Singapore will favour using its own water, Bernama cited Tan Sri Muhyiddin telling a briefing for Malaysian journalists.

    Singapore currently buys more than half of its water from Malaysia.

    He said that Mr Goh expressed interest in buying Malaysian water after one of the agreement expires, but only if the price is 'right,' Bernama reported.

    Singapore has started treating waste water from homes and businesses to make it drinkable, and will promote it as 'Newater'. -- AP



    My kingdom is not of this world but of the world to come which has no end. That is, the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to the Supreme God Almighty, the Master of the Universe, where love, justice and truth reigns forever & the Kingdom of Hell shall be ruled by Me eternally where the wicked & evil sinners dwell being tormented & tortured in fire & in sulfur day & night forever and ever without relief.

    Justice has been rendered true in an act of retribution for the last 7 years and we look forward to the next 7 years or more for JUSTICE & TRUTH to reign supreme !




    The Greatest Love of All

    The Greatest Love of All is :

    Matthew 22: 37 , Mark 12: 29 & Luke 10: 27 which states that "You shall love the Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind."




    ALWAYS start with ADAM from the Book of GENESIS, chapter 19, verse 36 – Moab, 37 – Benammi, 38 - Ben Afleck won’t marry you J Lo! Jump to Deutronomy Chapter 22, Verses 17, plus Exodus, Leviticus to Joshua, 1 Kings & 2 Kings to 2 Chronicles, Ezra, Nehemiah, Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, Hosea, Joel to Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah and Malachi and the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, then Collossians, Timothy, Peter right up to the Book of the Revelations!

    They will fight against the Lamb, but the Lamb will conquer the beasts, for he is Lord of lords and King of kings; (Revelation 17:14)

    I Confess

    Confiteor Deo omnipotenti
    et vobis, fratres,
    quia peccavi nimis
    cogitatione, verbo, o pere et omissiione:
    mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.
    I deo precor beatam Mariam
    semper Virginem,
    omnes Angelos et sanctos,
    et vos, fratres, orare pro me
    ad Dominum Deum nostrum.

    Our Father

    Pater noster, qui es in caelis;
    sanctifice tur nomen tuum;
    adveniat regnum tuum;
    fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo, et in terra.
    Panem nostrum cotidianum da nobis hodie;
    et dimitte nobis debita nostra,
    sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris;
    et ne nos inducas in tentationom;
    sed libera nos a malo.

    Lord, I am not worthy.

    Domine, non sum dignus ut
    intres sub tectum meum;
    sed tantum dic verbo,
    et sanabitur anima mea.

    may the Spirit you promised
    lead us into all truth
    and reveal to us the
    full meaning of this sacrifice.

    This is how I look 4 years after I was inflicted with Schizophrenia.

    I remember accurately it was on the 11th of May 1997, a Mother's Day for that year when I first heard intrusion voice(s) telling me to do this and that. Started at around 8:30 in the morning which lasted until about 4:00 pm.

    Subsequently, the next morning, I had mostly communicated with the entity with my own varied and incredible sorts of visions in my mind. This lasted the whole day and night until at night another entity took over and I started communicating by explanations of my actions of which I couldn't recall at the present moment what was the topic of conversation was but only that after each block of explanation is being answered by the word HATRED by the medium who seem to be telling another group of scums.

    This lasted until about 5:00 am when THE MIRACULUOS HAPPENNED...and so the story goes.

    I was first diagnosed to be suffering from acute paranoid schizophrenia when I first got into trouble with the law. That was when I have totally no insights of my illness and the entities made sure I did not.

    I got imposed with a fine by supporting reports from my psychiatrist and lawyer.


    I've just moved into my brand New condominium with full facilities this mid-May, 2004.

    I've bought a whole New set of living and dining furnitures plus a New & modern complete bedroom set.

    I also just installed a whole New Windows XP into my computer and have started exploring the latest computer notebooks available in town.

    I intend to get a new 29" colour TV set and a DVD system player by next month or so.

    Everything seems completely New & facinating to me. I'm really enjoying life aNew as before I had the schiz.

    The only thing that's old is the irritating & annoying intrusive entities who seem to want to destroy my very being, especially my emotional mind.

    Also, I'm getting older but wiser, though.

    Cherrios, you guys (& girls) !

    Dunhill cigarettes

    I smoke at least 20 sticks of Dunhill cigarettes a day everyday. At weekends, it may get worse, as my financier will be around during that time.

    I also drink at least a cup of Yellow Lipton tea with condensed milk and have at least a full meal a day being my fuel for the weekdays.

    There, no illegal subtances as substitutes for psychiatric injections...:)


    Only mind control with varied manifestations of emotions?

    Barontini Filter Pip

    Hi you guys,

    I just bought a large Barontini Filter Pip for my financier for his up and coming birthday. In the last 16 years we've been together, I've bought him a Dunhill lighter, Dunhill pen and branded t-shirts. But this cannot even account with what he has lavishly spent on me. Well, my reason for buying him a pip this time is to get him to realise that he has matured well into the years and it's only right to get something his age, I guess.

    By the way, I compared it with the other ugly-looking pips and saw this one was the best looking among the lot and the most expensive one. Check it out.

    I have an elegant feeling about it and it exuberates style and quality.


    On the 5th June, 2004, we went to Carrefour at Mid Valley Megamall to do our shopping. We bought 3 items totaling RM$21.57 at the pharmacy section of Carrefour. We gave the cashier RM100 and got back a change. After we walked off, my financier wondered why there was so little change given back by the cashier and realized he was short-changed.

    We went back to the cashier and questioned her. She gave us back another RM50, then apologized (for the mistake).

    Although we recovered the money, I am still not satisfied about the incident and will be making a police report.

    Here’s something to ponder.

    Although all the goods the shoplifter took were recovered, would the security of that retailer not have made a police report against the shoplifter who has been caught by them?

    That is to say, once a crime has been intentionally committed, is it the responsibility of the public to report the matter to the authorities to prosecute the offender?

    Think about it, would you? Then tell me what true justice is...:)

    Carrefour is a fcking French bastard company.
    The cheating thief cashier is a fcking Malaysian Muslim girl with a head-scarf.

    My message:

    The fcking Muslims who work in a fcking French bastard company should all remove their fcking stupid head-scarf so as to allow identification of criminals and sinners alike to be exposed.

    Da. Said it. Now you know the truth.

    THE SHIT (The Sick-mentalists)

    The sick-mentalists in our lives are like SHIT to be expelled out from our arseholes into the toilet bowls to be flushed into the sewer as sewerage SHIT.

    In short, these sick-mentalists are all JUST SHIT !

    F You PM - Prostitute Mother ( a prostitute who became a mother out of her prostitution with her father as an act of incest by itself producing a bastard as a product of incest - lan chiau wang pa tan's mouth! ) USM - U Stupid Malaysians - anak sundal, Iblis, MOAB!

    J Lo is a BUTT artist

    No wonder Ben Afleck won't marry you, J LO ! Because you're stupid, dirty & ugly!!! You BUTT ARTIST!!

    You're a NOBODY, to me, that is, you're a NOBODY. So don't try to be a somebody, at least not to me, that is. You may be a somebody in society but you're a nobody to me - so don't try to be a somebody, to me that is!



    JLo's Hasty Marriage Made in Heaven??

    The Associated Press
    Updated: 2:30 p.m. ET June 07, 2004 NEW YORK

    Lopez and Anthony reportedly tied the knot Saturday in a small ceremony at her Beverly Hills, Calif., home. Anthony’s publicist would not comment Monday. Lopez’s spokesperson didn’t immediately return a call Monday, but told The Associated Press on Sunday that he had no comment.

    This is the third marriage for the 34-year-old Lopez — the first was to waiter Ojani Noa in 1997, the second to Judd in 2001. Noa lasted a little more than a year; Judd for nine months.

    The singer-actress also was engaged to Affleck, her “Gigli” co-star, but amid a huge media frenzy they canceled their plans in September 2003 and broke up in January.

    Anthony, 34, just divorced former Miss Universe Dayanara Torres last week in the Dominican Republic. They married in 2000 and have two young sons; Anthony also has a daughter from a previous relationship.

    Here, take a good look at my private & confidential buttocks...:)

    I AM

    I AM Faithful and True; I judges and wages just wars. My eyes are flames of fire; I wear many crowns and written on Me is My own name, which no one can understand except Myself. I am clothed in a cloak drenched in blood. My name is the Word of God.

    The armies of heaven follow me. A sharp sword comes out of My mouth. With it I will strike the nations for I must rule them with an iron rod. I tread the winepress of the burning wrath of God, the Master of the universe. This is why this title is written on My cloak and on My thigh: King of kings and Lord of lords.

    Revelation 19: 11 - 16.


    Flato & Hawk,

    You constantly amaze me with your outright truths about this
    "debilitating disease". Bravo. You are admired for that.

    Flato wrote in message news:<6OHvc.109322$>...
    > HAWK wrote:
    > > I would agree but where does a thought end and a conversation begin?
    > Between two physical people, conversation begins when the vocal cords
    > rattle together and the gums flap. When there is no physical sound,
    > there is no conversation.
    > > you call them, are telepathy surely.
    > Yes, and that's largely why I don't want them in my life. They are
    > violators. I don't like being violated.
    > > If you come to terms with your "voices" and share you mind, thoughts,
    > > memories and dreams then what harm is there in that? When I say dreams, I
    > > mean "aspirations" not dreams as in when you are asleep.
    > I'm not opposed to other people coming to terms with their voices and
    > having a mutually beneficial relationship with them. Back during my
    > last psychotic episode, I would have been happy to have such a
    > relationship myself. But the relationship would have to be respectful.
    > If I decided not to share certain thoughts, the voices would have to
    > back off and not raid my cranium.
    > > How can you keep your thoughts private if they are constantly being
    > > monitored and read?
    > You can't. I really feel for people who still have that problem,
    > because there is no worse hell than it. This was especially true for
    > me, because my mind would squirm and my thoughts would become
    > uncharacteristic of me if I knew my mind was being read.
    > Flato

    Awareness of Presence

    "Sharon" wrote in message
    > "eluq" wrote in message
    > > > Cause and effect *seemed* to reverse itself *twice* in the separation
    > ..
    > so
    > > > this makes everything a little more confusing.
    > Heres how I see this:
    > The Son is not dreaming, because he is awake. But, an aspect of Him fell
    > asleep. This did not hinder creation in anyway. But, this aspect is real
    > and it's sleeping mind has the power to miscreate.

    > But, who is the dreamer?
    > The aspect of the Son (that sleeps) has an insane mind that needs healing.
    > Miracles bring about "right-mindedness". This is not the same thing as
    > Knowledge, however. But, a "right minded" mind can dream a happy
    > dream -so close- to Heaven, that God can take the final step. So,
    > ultamately, returning to Heaven's awareness it's out of our hands.
    > > > When the mind of the mind of sleeping son is healed, he can dream a
    > dream
    > > > that is so close to Heaven that is will almost reach back to God. At
    > this
    > > > point, God will take the final step.
    > > > Sharon
    > >
    > > Where is the mind of the sleeping son? And what do you have to do with
    > it?
    > >
    > I'm speaking of the post seperated mind and I believe it is outside of time
    > and space .. and for that reason we cannot pinpoint it's location. It's
    > literally "nowhere". LOL. But, I also think that it (the mind) has
    > projected itself into the world and believes it is a body/personality waking
    > around the planet earth. But, like I was saying above.. there is an aspect
    > of this mind that is real, and shares it's Thoughts with God. Once the mind
    > is healed, this will be the only part that is left.


    Doctors are glorified salespeople for the providers of medications, treatments, and diagnostic tests. They are also the servants of the pharmaceutical companies.

    A doctor's first priority is stuffing money into his own pockets. His second is generating revenue for the medical-industrial complex. The third is covering up their many mistakes, and the fourth is covering up other doctors' mistakes. With some, patient well-being is a distant fifth, but with many, it's not a consideration at all.

    Back in 2002, I got some expired pills from the pharmacy. I know they were expired because it was 2002 and the blister pack expiry date was December 2001. I showed them to my doctor and he advised me to get replacements from the pharmacy, so I did. A few months later I mentioned the incident and he claimed not to remember it. When I asked him to check his notes, he read off the following: "Patient is fearful of getting expired medication." So all of a sudden I've gone from having outright proof of something to just being a paranoid asshole. I haven't seen a doctor since.


    "You know what it feels to have skin deformations that cause so much disgust and contempt
    from women that their actual feeling radiates in black colour all the way into your hypothalamus.

    What it feels like to have demons attacking your soul every single day,
    making an effort to dispense of them using every available means,
    praying with fervour to the lowest common denominator of all divine entities up there, in hopes of deliverance?" Ioannis.

    "I am rebelling against perceived injustice.
    Thats about as close to psycho-Babble as I get. Not going to find
    excuses in my childhood or blame my social developement for my life
    deportments." Damo.

    "I wonder the possible fruition of the conspiracy of
    things consulting with the real circumstance of schizophrenia." Damo.

    "Schizophrenia is simply a disease that brings up ideas and thoughts via voices in the mind." Author unknown.

    Catholic Priestly Celibacy

    From young, I understand that priests are supposed to practice celibacy. That means abstaining fom sexual intercourse, or to be precise, abstaining from inserting the penis into the vagina.

    But do Priests have to totally abstain from all forms of sex acts as well including sexual fantasies, kissing, fondling, masturbation, etc, etc, etc.?

    So, if Priests are supposedly to be ONLY celibate, then, is it right to say that the Catholic Priest(s) MAY INSERT THE PENIS INTO THE ALTAR BOY(S)' MOUTH AND ARSEHOLES?

    So the Catholic Priest ARE CELIBATE after all, eh?

    TITANIC........ ADAM STINKS!!!

    p/s The definitions of celibate, celibacy & sexual intercourse are taken from the Oxford University Press, 1996.

    Adam stinks like S-H-I-T !

    It's just disgusting to know some people can even support a transvestite lunatic cuckoo who potrays being the "innocent" party in the you-know-what S-H-I-T / GARBAGE !
    We-all-know-what-is-going-on-thing-except-that-no-one-wants-to-acknowledge- the-fact-that-only-true-justice-in-all-heavenly-perfection-prevails-as-in- the-truth-shall-be-exalted!!!!!!!!

    p/s See you all supporters in Hell. (To the others, your-liberation-is-near-at-hand!)


    Beware of a fraudulant lunatic who is the cause of injustice schizophrenia upon my MIND!
    He is the pervert who has been justifiably condemned to hell!
    My justice, retribution & revenge all combined into one has been executed
    upon this fcking asshole!

    This is my message to the Pervert Arsehole:





    FUCK YOU & FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!



    Dedicated to JLaw in London: 98* & Rising


    All I am, all I'll be
    Everything in this world
    All that I'll ever need
    Is in your eyes
    Shining at me
    When you smile I can feel
    All my passion unfolding
    Your hand brushes mine
    And a thousand sensations
    Seduce me 'cause I

    I do cherish you
    For the rest of my life
    You don't have to think twice
    I will love you still
    From the depths of my soul
    It's beyond my control
    I've waited so long to say this to you
    If you're asking do I love you this much
    I do

    In my world, before you
    I lived outside my emotions
    Didn't know where I was going
    'Til that day I found you
    How you opened my life
    To a new paradise
    In a world torn by change
    Still with all my heart
    'Til my dying day



    Baby let me love you
    To the 98th degree girl and heat it up
    I'm down, girl let's heat it up, I'm down
    I can give you all my lovin'
    If you're only down for me, girl
    Let's heat it up, I'm down
    Come on heat it up, I'm down boy

    Late at night I fantasize, girl
    That you and I, yo you were rockin' my world
    I can't deny the way I'm feeling
    Think about you girl, again and again yeah
    Whenever I'm with you my fantasies come true
    So tell me what you want to do
    Just hold me close, don't let me go
    Baby show me how the 98 will flow
    I want to know how it can be
    With 98*, you gotta know
    I'm down for you, baby show me what the 98 can do
    Boy lead the way to ecstasy
    But only if you're down for me


    This urgency of what I'm feeling is killing me
    When will this lovin' begin
    I wanna be the one you run to
    Girl you know there is nothing I wouldn't do
    The very thought of you is like a dream come true
    So tell me what you want to do, yeah
    Just hold me close don't let me go
    Baby show me how the 98 will flow
    I want to know how it can be with 98 degrees
    You gotta know I'm down for you
    Baby show me what the 98 can do
    Boy lead the way to esctasy
    Baby come get down with me


    Heat it up just a touch
    Are you down for my love
    Heat it up just a touch
    Are you down for my love
    Heat it up just a touch
    Are you down for my love
    Heat it up
    Only if you're down


    THE HARDEST THING by 98* And Rising

    We both know that I shouldn't be here
    This is wrong
    And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
    Both of us tryin' to be strong
    I've got somewhere else to be
    Promises to keep
    Someone else who loves me
    And trusts me fast asleep
    I've made up my mind
    There is no turning back
    He's been good to me
    And he deserves better than that

    Chorus It's the hardest thing
    I'll ever have to do
    To look you in the eye
    And tell you I don't love you
    It's the hardest thing
    I'll ever have to lie
    To show no emotion
    When you start to cry
    I can't let you see
    What you mean to me
    When my hands are tied
    And my heart's not free
    We're not meant to be
    It's the hardest thing
    I'll ever have to do
    To turn around and walk away
    Pretending I don't love you

    I know that we'll meet again
    Fate has a place and time
    So you can get on with your life
    I've got to be cruel to be kind
    Like Dr. Zhivago
    All my love I'll be sending
    And you will never know
    ‘Cause there can be no happy ending


    Maybe another time, another day
    As much as I want to, I can't stay
    I've made up my mind
    There is no turning back
    He's been good to me
    And he deserves better than that



    track 1 : Honor to Us All
    track 2 : Reflection
    track 3 : I'll Make a Man Out of You
    track 4 : A Girl Worth Fighting For
    track 5 : True to Your Heart (Single)


    Look at me
    You may think you see
    Who I really am
    But you'll never know me
    Every day
    It's as if I play a part
    Now I see
    If I wear a mask
    I can fool the world
    But I cannot fool my heart

    Who is that girl I see
    Staring straight back at me?
    When will my reflection show
    Who I am inside?

    I am now
    In a world where I
    Have to hide my heart
    And what I believe in
    But somehow
    I will show the world
    What's inside my heart
    And be loved for who I am

    Who is that girl I see
    Staring straight back at me?
    Why is my reflection
    Someone I don't know?
    Must I pretend that I'm
    Someone else for all time?
    When will my reflection show
    Who I am inside?

    There's a heart that must be
    Free to fly
    That burns with a need to know
    The reason why

    Why must we all conceal
    What we think, how we feel?
    Must there be a secret me
    I'm forced to hide?
    I won't pretend that I'm
    Someone else for all time
    When will my reflection show
    Who I am inside?
    When will my reflection show
    Who I am inside?

    Artist: 2Pac
    Album: Greatest Hits
    Song: Changes

    Come on come on I see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myself
    is life worth living should I blast myself?
    I'm tired of bein' poor and even worse I'm black
    my stomach hurts so I'm lookin' for a purse to snatch
    Cops give a damn about a negro pull the trigger kill a nigga he's a hero
    Give crack to the kids who the hell cares one less ugly mouth on the welfare
    First ship 'em dope & let 'em deal the brothers
    give 'em guns step back watch 'em kill each other
    It's time to fight back that's what Huey said
    2 shots in the dark now Huey's dead
    I got love for my brother but we can never go nowhere
    unless we share with each other We gotta start makin' changes
    learn to see me as a brother instead of 2 distant strangers
    and that's how it's supposed to be
    How can the Devil take a brother if he's close to me?
    I'd love to go back to when we played as kids
    but things changed, and that's the way it is

    [Bridge w/ changing ad libs]

    Come on come on That's just the way it is Things'll never be the same
    That's just the way it is aww yeah

    I see no changes all I see is racist faces
    misplaced hate makes disgrace to races
    We under I wonder what it takes to make this
    one better place, let's erase the wasted
    Take the evil out the people they'll be acting right
    'cause both black and white is smokin' crack tonight
    and only time we chill is when we kill each other
    it takes skill to be real, time to heal each other
    And although it seems heaven sent We ain't ready, to see a black President, uhh
    It ain't a secret don't conceal the fact
    the penitentiary's packed, and it's filled with blacks
    But some things will never change
    try to show another way but you stayin' in the dope game
    Now tell me what's a mother to do bein' real don't appeal to the brother in you
    You gotta operate the easy way
    "I made a G today" But you made it in a sleazy way
    sellin' crack to the kid. " I gotta get paid,"
    Well hey, well that's the way it is


    We gotta make a change...
    It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes.
    Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live
    and let's change the way we treat each other.
    You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do
    what we gotta do, to survive.
    And still I see no changes can't a brother get a little peace
    It's war on the streets & the war in the Middle East

    Instead of war on poverty they got a war on drugs so the police can bother me And I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do
    But now I'm back with the blacks givin' it back to you
    Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up, crack you up and pimp slap you up
    You gotta learn to hold ya own
    they get jealous when they see ya with ya mobile phone
    But tell the cops they can't touch this
    I don't trust this when they try to rush I bust this
    That's the sound of my tool you say it ain't cool my mama didn't raise no fool
    And as long as I stay black I gotta stay strapped & I never get to lay back
    'Cause I always got to worry 'bout the pay backs
    some buck that I roughed up way back comin' back after all these years
    rat-a-tat-tat-tat-tat that's the way it is uhh

    [Bridge 'til fade]

    Artist: 2Pac
    Album: Greatest Hits
    Song: Picture Me Rollin

    Yeah, clear enough for ya.
    Why niggas look mad.
    y'all supposed to be happy I'm free.
    Y'all look like you wanted me to stay in jail
    Old busters.

    Picture me rollin' in my 500 benz.
    I got no love for these niggas,
    There's no need to be friends.
    They got me under survailance.
    That's what somebody be tellin' me.
    Known as don't be insulted(?).
    but I ain't the one tellin'.
    Don't want to be another number.
    I got a fuckin' gang of weed to keep from goin under.
    The fedarones(?) wanna see me dead.
    Niggas put prices on my head.
    Now I got 2 rottwillers by me bed.
    I feed em lead.
    Now on release.
    How will I live?
    Will God forgive me for all the dirt a nigga did?
    To feed kids.
    One life to live.
    It's so hard to be positive
    When niggas shootin at your crib.
    Mama, I'm still thuggin'
    The world is a war zone.
    My homies is inmates
    And most of them dead grown
    Full grown, finally a man
    Just sceamin on ways to put some green inside the palms
    Of my empty hands.
    Just picture me rollin'.
    Flossin a benz on rims that isn't stolen.
    My dreams is scensored.
    My hopes are gone.
    I'm like a fiend that finally see when all the dope is gone.
    My nerves is wrecked.
    Heart beatin' and my hands is swollen.
    Thinkin of the G's I'll be holdin.
    Picture me rollin.
    Can you see me now
    Move to the side a little bit so you can get a clear picture
    Can you see it?
    Pictue me rollin.
    Yeah nigga
    Eh, but picture how my nigga Sak duke do it.
    Guess who's back?

    I got keys comin from overseas.
    Cost a nigga 200 G's.
    I'm a street comando.
    Nino for example.
    This lavish lifestyle is hard to handle.
    So I got to floss cuz I'm rollin like a boss playa.
    Thug granted to be a women layer
    So mny playa haters, imitaters steady swangin.
    Make me wanna start bank bangin.
    So I'm caught up in the game.
    Let's go change.
    Packin 40 glocks.
    Contain or rearrange.
    All that jealousy and envy comin from my enemies
    While I'm sippin on green leaves(?)
    In front of black lexuses, chevies on the roam.
    96 big bodies sittin on chrome
    As we head up out the zone,
    Stone facing is on.
    Looking at mine but don't look too long.
    I'm livin a dream with triple beams and my pockets bulgin.
    It's hard to imagine.
    Picture me rollin.

    I gots to get the fuck up in.
    Goin to lay a caper.
    Cuz a nigga straight sufferin from lack of havin paper.
    My bitch fin to have a bastard, see?
    So I need to hit a lick, drastically.
    I see some bald head ass niggas and they slippin in my spot
    And, uh, diggin in the pots.
    Check in the park, Pac.

    We caught em sleepin.
    We didn't think you niggas creepin.
    This how we do it every weekend
    And I dump for madness(?)
    It's time to count the profit.
    CPO, we got the bomb spot.
    Nigga, time to clock it.
    I get the liquor and you could get the females.
    This crooked shit can reinflict and get the street sales.

    Move smooth as a mother fucker, me and my 9.
    I'm cool as a mother fucker, I'm a get mine.
    Now we satisfied.
    Got the pockets on swollen.
    Boss hog and this Pac nigga.
    Picture us rollin.

    Heh, heh, heh.
    Y'all ready for me?
    Picture me rollin roll call.
    You know there's some mother fuckers out there
    I just could not forget about.
    I wanna make sure they can see me.
    Number one on my list: Clinton Correctional Faciluties,
    All you bitch asses.
    Can you niggas see me from there?
    Ballin on all y'all punk ass.
    Heh, ha ha!
    Picture me rollin, baby.
    Yeah, all you niggas up in them cell blocks,
    I told yall niggas when I come home it's on.
    That's right nigga, picture me rollin
    Oh, I forgot....the DA(district attorney)
    Yeah, that bitch had alot to talk about in court.
    Can the ho see me from here?
    Can you see me, ho?
    Picture me rollin'.
    And all you punk police, can you see me?
    Am I clear to you?
    Picture me rollin' nigga, legit.
    Free like OJ all day
    You can't stop me.
    You know I got my niggas up in this mother fucker.
    Noope, ?, Syke, Rollcall, Mopreme
    Can you picture us rollin?
    Can you see me ho?
    Is y'all ready for me .
    We up out this bitch.
    Any time y'all wanna see me again,
    Rewind this track right here, close your eyes
    And picture me rollin.

    Artist: 2Pac
    Album: Greatest Hits
    Song: How Long Will They Mourn Me


    How long will they mourn me
    Yeah! This for my nigga Kato
    It's still on nigga
    Thug Life, Thugs for life
    Ha Ha yeah, how long will they mourn me
    Yeah nigga
    2Pac in this muthafucka

    All my homies drinking liquor
    Tears in everybody's eyes
    Niggas cried to mourn a homies homicide
    But I can't cry
    instead I'm just a shoulder
    Damn, why they take another soldier
    I load my clip before my eyes blurry, don't worry
    I'll get them suckas back before your buried (shit)
    Retaliate and pull a 187
    do real niggas get to go to heaven ?
    How long will they mourn me, bury me a muthafuckin 'G'
    Bitch don't wanna die
    then don't fuck with me
    It's kinda hard to be optimistic
    When your homies lying dead on the pavement twisted
    Y'all don't hear me doe, I'm trying hard to make amends
    But I'm losing all my muthafuckin friends (damn)
    They should've shot me when I was born
    Now I'm trapped in the muthafuckin' storm
    How long will they mourn me ?

    I wish it would have been another
    How long will they mourn me
    How long will they mourn my brother
    (Got them niggas all dead and shit)
    How long will they mourn me
    I wish it would have been another
    (Nate Dogg)
    How long will they mourn me
    How long will they mourn my brother
    (Gotta keep this shit goin' on, Yo Syke)

    How long will they mourn me
    Every muthafuckin' day homie
    You stayed down when tha other niggas didn't know me
    From my heart to the trigga you my fuckin' nigga
    And things won't be the same without ya nigga
    I remember kickin' back, you wanted to lack
    And goin' half on a muthafuckin' hundred sack
    Smokin' blunt after blunt and steady drinkin'
    Hung around so much, you knew what I was thinkin'
    Tell me Lord, why you take big Kato ?
    So confused not knowing which way to go
    I'm goin crazy and runnin' out of fuckin' time
    I can't take it, I'm losin' my fuckin' mind
    So day after day
    ride after ride
    We'll hook up on the other side
    Watch over your family and your newborn
    Till we meet again homie
    How long will they mourn me ?

    I wish it would have been another
    (Yo Kato)
    How long will they mourn me
    (It's still on nigga)
    How long will they mourn my brother
    How long will they mourn me
    I wish it would have been another
    How long will they mourn me
    How long will they mourn my brother
    (Rated R, Double Jeopardy, Mack 10)

    Damn a nigga tired of feeling sad
    I'm tired of putting in work
    I'm tired of cryin while watching my homies leave the earth
    I know soon one day I'll be in the dirt
    And my peoples'll be mournin'
    When they get a call from the coroner
    All niggas can say is that's fucked up
    And get tossed up
    Reminiscing how we grew up (my nigga)
    Rest and love to my nigga Kato
    See you in the crossroads real soon
    For now let me pour out some brew
    I'll be always thinkin' of ya homie
    Rest in peace
    How long will they mourn me ?

    Ya know life's a fuckin' trip
    And everybody gotta go
    But why the fuck it have to be my nigga Kato
    Another nigga fell victim to the chrome
    It's enough to make you crazy
    It's fuckin' with my dome
    Ya only live once on this earth
    A nigga had it bad, since the day of my mutahfuckin' birth
    But niggas say they down and they always be my homie
    But when a nigga gone
    How long will ya mourn me ?

    I wish it would have been another
    (Mack 10 in this muthafucka)
    Yeah, how long will ya mourn me
    How long will ya mourn my bother
    (Thug Life boy, Nate blowin' that shit,
    Nate Dogg do that shit nigga)
    I wish it would have been another
    Yeah! How long will ya mourn me
    How long will ya mourn my brother
    (This for my nigga Kato and all his kids)
    How long will ya mourn me
    I wish it would have been another
    How long will ya mourn my brother

    Imbruglia, Natalie
    Left of the Middle

    Sweet confetti out looking for a saviour
    Finding it hard to break the change
    Nothing ventured nothing gained
    Ice cream beauty acting on her best behaviour
    Finding it hard to bite her tongue
    Feeling so old as the night is young

    Six foot leaning on a lizard chest
    Two red dragons ironed on his vest
    All that money you deserve the best
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed

    What you've got isn't all that you've been given
    Changing your body like you change your jeans
    Nothing is ever as it seems
    Something tells me it's a marriage made in heaven
    Stealing your look from a magazine
    Playing the part from a movie scene

    Six foot leaning on a lizard chest
    Two red dragons ironed on his vest
    All that money you deserve the best
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed
    Everyday is like your birthday
    But the candles burning out, Don't you see, Don't you see

    Six foot leaning on a lizard chest
    Two red dragons ironed on his vest
    All that money you deserve the best
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed
    I'm impressed

    Dedicated to a "Brandon":
    Left of the Middle

    I thought I saw a man brought to life
    He was warm
    He came around like he was dignified
    He showed me what it was to cry
    Well you couldn't be that man I adored
    You don't seem to know
    Seem to care what your heart is for
    But I don't know him anymore
    There's nothing where he used to lie
    My conversation has run dry
    That's what's going on
    Nothing's fine I'm torn

    I'm all out of faith
    This is how I feel
    I'm cold and I am shamed
    Lying naked on the floor
    Illusion never changed
    Into something real
    I'm wide awake
    And I can see
    The perfect sky is torn
    You're a little late
    I'm already torn

    So I guess the fortune teller's right
    Should have seen just what was there
    And not some holy light
    Which crawled beneath my veins
    And now I don't care
    I had no luck
    I don't miss it all that much
    There's just so many things
    That I can touch I'm torn

    I'm all out of faith
    This is how I feel
    I'm cold and I am shamed
    Lying naked on the floor
    Illusion never changed
    Into something real
    I'm wide awake
    And I can see
    The perfect sky is torn
    You're a little late
    I'm already torn

    There's nothing where he used to lie
    My inspiration has run dry
    That's what's going on
    Nothing's right I'm torn

    I'm all out of faith
    This is how I feel
    I'm cold and I am shamed
    Lying naked on the floor
    Illusion never changed
    Into something real
    I'm wide awake
    And I can see
    The perfect sky is torn

    I'm all out of faith
    This is how I feel
    I'm cold and I'm ashamed
    Bound and broken on the floor
    You're a little late
    I'm already torn