On this page I will write about anything I desire... Anything I am thinking about and anything I want to know more about... You are always welcome to email me and tell me what you are thinking... I will post it up here and so your thoughts may reach the world... Or at least the people that happen to visit this page...
March 16th 2002 - Joy.... Pure... Simple... Something we all want to feel. Something that seems common, but is not. Not many people feel it... All wish to, but most don't feel they can find it on their own. They believe that they need someone else to find it for them. That is why the endless search for "soulmates" continues. Because people think, that if they find their "soulmate", they will find happiness, they will find joy. But in my mind, this is not true. You can only find joy if you first find yourself. If you find that happiness comes from within you and you only. The other person may or may not help you in this cause. Most often, they get in the way at first... Untill you are ready yourself, they only make things worse.
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March 24th 2002 - Do you ever notice how you sometimes push people away even though you don't intend to? I know I do it, and it isn't that uncommon... Frankly, I think that everyone does it in their lifetime at least once or twice, and that they do it without realizing it half the time. Well, I think we should stop that... I mean, how many friends could we actually have if we were really nice to each other and were aware of the things we are doing wrong or right? I understand perfectly what you are thinking right now... "yeah right, like I believe that" and I didn't say you had to.... I don't myself think that it is 100% possible to do. But just to try is something, isn't it? Wouldn't it be nice if all would always work itself out? Well it's not gonna happen. Not if we don't move it along. Anyway, that's all I wanted to say, so later everyone!
May 6th 2002 - Allright so I know that I didn't even try to update this site in the last err... looong while, and I would like to say that I had a very busy life. Too busy to update anyway, but I know that I would be lying. And I suppose that would be bad. Right now that is. Anywayz, I was just really toooooooo lazy to do anything. Allthough I suppose I would like to post some new pictures up. Because pictures are good. Eh... riight, so I think that my sister might be a little odd.. She just asked me if she could take a chunk of my hair, she thinks it smells pretty. Okay, now she is braiding it. And not doing a very good job at that. But shouldn't this site be about something actually interasting then what my sister is doing? Maybe, maybe not.... Well well well now she is reading what I am writing. A little weird... But really... I must find a subject that would be good to write about... I know... I will write a story about how the universe was created in my mind... And I will make a new page of stories. Not only my stories, but stories of other people. Hmmmm.... might get interasting at last... Yes.. that is what I shall do.
May 21st 2002 - I really am running out of stuff to write down here. So, I believe that I will take a long break from ramblings themselves while I work on something else. The Stories section perhaps, for it really does need some work. Maybe I shall add a Dreams section to my page. Or just divide the stories section maybe. Oh well, time to get to work. Like I said this section will be closed untill further notice.
June 9th 2002 - Anywho... Life is pretty fun right now... You ever have one of those days when everything is going right? I don't.... lol... just wondering if someone out there is actually delusional enough to say yes to that one. Hmm.... yeah... I am feeling pretty happy right now... And I am thinking of dying my hair.. Not the whole head mind you... Just something like what the chick from X-men has... Rogue... that's it... Yup... Gonna look cute... And guess what is coming up on the 21st? The day that I have been waiting for a while now... Still not sure if I am gonna go through with it... but the thought is there for sure... Later